Sometimes you don't get what you want and I know it hurts but you keep increasing the intensity of your pain by putting yourself down by saying terrible things to yourself the kind of things you had never say to someone you have. Listen to me it's okay if the result did not match your expectations. It's okay if your thought something great would come out of something and it didn't . I know you put a lot of hard work time and energy into it. And I know it's not easy to get over it but the truth is you re staying in the past despite knowing it has slipped away. You re punishing yourself every day for something that has already hurt you enough .please don't break your own heart by reminding yourself of things that went wrong in the past.