Anomie
Newbie
It's funny how a simple curiosity can turn into something you never expected. I came across him in an online chatroom, found him interesting, and for once, I gathered the courage to approach him. I didn't want anything from him, nor did I have any expectations about what this could become. I just wanted to talk to him, to have one little conversation with someone who caught my attention. Maybe my approach was wrong, maybe I came across differently than I intended, or perhaps my attempt to start a conversation made him uncomfortable. I don't know, and I won't pretend to understand what goes through his mind. I can only say that my intentions were simple. I wasn't trying to claim his attention, invade his space, or force my way into his world. I just wanted to know what it felt like to talk to him, even if it was only for a little while. But I can sense him retreating, and I respect that enough to step back. I have no regrets about approaching him, at least I was brave enough to act on my curiosity instead of wondering what if. I wasn't asking for a place in his life, I just wanted a moment of his time. And if even that wasn't meant to happen, I'll leave him with the same freedom he had before I ever said hello.
