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Trying To Understand (Poem I Wrote)

Billy

Wellknown Ace
I stand in front of the mirror and look at my face
Another sight I wish I just had the power to erase
Is there a place for someone like me, I don't know
But if I wanted to leave here, where could I go?
I lack the determination to fight for a transition
From the mind state I got now that lacks definition
I gave up on life then the problems began to pile
I became hostile and concluded life isn't worth while
Now I go each day unable to achieve a simple smile
I can be outgoing and fun but yet I wear a frown
There's no middle ground, either high up or far down
A manic depressive struggling to maintain control
And avoid the darkness that tries to consume my soul
I can't figure out what this life of mine is about
Haunted by doubt, a feeling I could easily live without
Another day, another poem, another release from pain
And with each one I write I'm no closer to being sane
I hope in due time the confusion with end and I will see

The man that I am now and the one that I must be
 
A heartache leaves u in an abyss very hard to crawl out... I've been through it n I can relate.. Find something that helps for me it was work full steam n prayers... Don't ya go down pal my shoulders are there if ya need rest
 
This was a long time ago, things might not be 100% better, but I've got a reason to move forward these days :)
 
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