He became a memory I still negotiate with.
Some days I convince myself I’m over him. I tell myself enough time has passed, that people leave and life simply continues. But then something small happens, a song, a familiar laugh, a random moment of silence, and suddenly I’m back in the version of me that still waits for him in invisible ways.
The hardest part is that I no longer know if I miss him, or the way I felt when he was around. Maybe I miss the comfort. Maybe I miss who I was before things became complicated. Because memories are dangerous like that, they soften the pain and romanticize the loss.
I replay conversations in my head like unfinished scenes, negotiating with every detail. If I had stayed calmer, if he had tried harder, if timing had been kinder, would we still have found our way back to each other?
But people change. Feelings change. And sometimes closure never arrives the way we want it to. So instead, I carry him quietly, not as someone I can return to, but as someone my heart still visits when it forgets how to let go.
Some days I convince myself I’m over him. I tell myself enough time has passed, that people leave and life simply continues. But then something small happens, a song, a familiar laugh, a random moment of silence, and suddenly I’m back in the version of me that still waits for him in invisible ways.
The hardest part is that I no longer know if I miss him, or the way I felt when he was around. Maybe I miss the comfort. Maybe I miss who I was before things became complicated. Because memories are dangerous like that, they soften the pain and romanticize the loss.
I replay conversations in my head like unfinished scenes, negotiating with every detail. If I had stayed calmer, if he had tried harder, if timing had been kinder, would we still have found our way back to each other?
But people change. Feelings change. And sometimes closure never arrives the way we want it to. So instead, I carry him quietly, not as someone I can return to, but as someone my heart still visits when it forgets how to let go.


