Late Night Thoughts

[Nemo]

So hear I am, sat here in my squeaky rickety chair, staring at the same four walls like usual, when a thought comes across my mind, as thought's do when I can't sleep, the usual questions like the who what where how why when scenarios. Who am I? What will I achieve in life? Where will I end up? How will I get there? and When will all this happen?

The same trope of questions day in day out. Do I let my mind wander of course I do, you have to let the old imagination run wild every now and again, obviously nothing ever comes about from it. But lets try it anyways...

Who am I? I'm Nemo, of course I'm Nemo, the clown fish that isn't funny.
What will I achieve in life? Quiet loneliness, the quiet yearning for love, desire and lust.
Where will I end up? Sat in the same squeaky rickety chair that I'm always sat in
How will I get there? I'm already there, what kind of stupid question is this?
When will this happen? It's already happening like a never ending time loop.

That's where my brain is at right now. But where I'd like to be in my heart is;

Who am I? I'm Nemo, of course I'm Nemo, happy, and content with life
What will I achieve in life? A happy family, stable income, and following or two of my passions
Where will I end up? Sat on a sofa with the love of my life, drinking hot chocolate
How will I get there? By being calm and patient.
When will this happen? Hopefully soon, hopefully someone will sweep me off of my feet.
Why this will happen? Because I deserve to be happy and loved and cherished.

It's amazing how the brain can say one thing and the heart says another. Do they ever align and agree? I don't think they do... why would they? Love is nothing but a pipe dream, wishes never come true. So those questions, the who's, what's, where's, how's, why's and when's are all irrelevant and pointless, so why why why do I sit here and ponder them day after day, night after night

 

[Juliette]

So hear I am, sat here in my squeaky rickety chair, staring at the same four walls like usual, when a thought comes across my mind, as thought's do when I can't sleep, the usual questions like the who what where how why when scenarios. Who am I? What will I achieve in life? Where will I end up? How will I get there? and When will all this happen?

The same trope of questions day in day out. Do I let my mind wander of course I do, you have to let the old imagination run wild every now and again, obviously nothing ever comes about from it. But lets try it anyways...

Who am I? I'm Nemo, of course I'm Nemo, the clown fish that isn't funny.
What will I achieve in life? Quiet loneliness, the quiet yearning for love, desire and lust.
Where will I end up? Sat in the same squeaky rickety chair that I'm always sat in
How will I get there? I'm already there, what kind of stupid question is this?
When will this happen? It's already happening like a never ending time loop.

That's where my brain is at right now. But where I'd like to be in my heart is;

Who am I? I'm Nemo, of course I'm Nemo, happy, and content with life
What will I achieve in life? A happy family, stable income, and following or two of my passions
Where will I end up? Sat on a sofa with the love of my life, drinking hot chocolate
How will I get there? By being calm and patient.
When will this happen? Hopefully soon, hopefully someone will sweep me off of my feet.
Why this will happen? Because I deserve to be happy and loved and cherished.

It's amazing how the brain can say one thing and the heart says another. Do they ever align and agree? I don't think they do... why would they? Love is nothing but a pipe dream, wishes never come true. So those questions, the who's, what's, where's, how's, why's and when's are all irrelevant and pointless, so why why why do I sit here and ponder them day after day, night after night

Brains can be cruel sometimes… but your heart’s version feels so much more true. Maybe the loop isn’t endless you never know when things might shift.

 

[KIKII007]

So hear I am, sat here in my squeaky rickety chair, staring at the same four walls like usual, when a thought comes across my mind, as thought's do when I can't sleep, the usual questions like the who what where how why when scenarios. Who am I? What will I achieve in life? Where will I end up? How will I get there? and When will all this happen?

The same trope of questions day in day out. Do I let my mind wander of course I do, you have to let the old imagination run wild every now and again, obviously nothing ever comes about from it. But lets try it anyways...

Who am I? I'm Nemo, of course I'm Nemo, the clown fish that isn't funny.
What will I achieve in life? Quiet loneliness, the quiet yearning for love, desire and lust.
Where will I end up? Sat in the same squeaky rickety chair that I'm always sat in
How will I get there? I'm already there, what kind of stupid question is this?
When will this happen? It's already happening like a never ending time loop.

That's where my brain is at right now. But where I'd like to be in my heart is;

Who am I? I'm Nemo, of course I'm Nemo, happy, and content with life
What will I achieve in life? A happy family, stable income, and following or two of my passions
Where will I end up? Sat on a sofa with the love of my life, drinking hot chocolate
How will I get there? By being calm and patient.
When will this happen? Hopefully soon, hopefully someone will sweep me off of my feet.
Why this will happen? Because I deserve to be happy and loved and cherished.

It's amazing how the brain can say one thing and the heart says another. Do they ever align and agree? I don't think they do... why would they? Love is nothing but a pipe dream, wishes never come true. So those questions, the who's, what's, where's, how's, why's and when's are all irrelevant and pointless, so why why why do I sit here and ponder them day after day, night after night

Nemo i really wanna answer it but in a different way
who are you? ~ you are powerful and a part of god
What is the purpose of life? ~ probably we born to do some novel works for our own country and for other lives and may be to fulfill our incomplete wishes of past life
and what is love or who loves you?? ~ No one except god yeah that's the reality
Everyones love us for Their own purpose, remember love us unconditional and u can't expect anything in love but this world is selfies no one's gonna love u here and not even our own parents
but ur love can't end up just like this,, Be aware be strong,, pray to gods and live a scheduled life things will get better, I swear

 

[Nemo]

@KIKII007 Although I respect other peoples beliefs and faiths, I myself am not a religious person. I also don't understand how people can put such faith into someone considered as a 'higher being'. I was 14 when I decided to Atheist, because in my head I couldn't understand why a higher being would allow someone to be abandoned, rejected and neglected as a child. How could a 'higher being allow a child to be mentally, physically and emotionally abused. I've a lot of question, and no one I've spoken has been able to give me an answer... not even a priest could answer them, and they all pertained to the religious belief that God doesn't abandon his people... yet it's obvious he does.

As for parents... I may as well say I don't know what they are, because my parents weren't parents in the literal sense, they were bullies and abusers. I could be angry and frustrated about it all, if anything I'm still confused as to why or how these things happened to me, but ultimately I've just accepted that this is the way it's going to be for me, and I will always have those very same questions, who, what, where, how, why, when and those very same questions will never truly be answered