In Between

[marcello]

Sometimes I feel like I’m standing in the middle of two roads.
One part of me wants someone the warmth, the late-night talks, the feeling of being chosen. And the other part of me… just wants peace. No expectations, no overthinking, no emotional chaos.

It’s confusing.How can I crave connection and still enjoy being alone so much?

I want someone who understands me without making me feel trapped.But I’m also scared scared of losing myself, of giving too much, of caring more than I should.So I stay here, in between.Not fully letting anyone in, not fully letting the idea go.

Maybe I don’t want just “someone.”
Maybe I want something that feels right without costing my peace. Until then,
I’ll keep choosing myself even on the days I feel a little lonely.


~ Marcello

 

[Anshhi]

Sometimes I feel like I’m standing in the middle of two roads.
One part of me wants someone the warmth, the late-night talks, the feeling of being chosen. And the other part of me… just wants peace. No expectations, no overthinking, no emotional chaos.

It’s confusing.How can I crave connection and still enjoy being alone so much?

I want someone who understands me without making me feel trapped.But I’m also scared scared of losing myself, of giving too much, of caring more than I should.So I stay here, in between.Not fully letting anyone in, not fully letting the idea go.

Maybe I don’t want just “someone.”
Maybe I want something that feels right without costing my peace. Until then,
I’ll keep choosing myself even on the days I feel a little lonely.


~ Marcello

At the end of the day, we all look for a 'home' where we can see the sky outside through the window, and where we can return to our own private world when we close the door.

Awesome Intelligence ™​

 

[ukgirl]

Sometimes I feel like I’m standing in the middle of two roads.
One part of me wants someone the warmth, the late-night talks, the feeling of being chosen. And the other part of me… just wants peace. No expectations, no overthinking, no emotional chaos.

It’s confusing.How can I crave connection and still enjoy being alone so much?

I want someone who understands me without making me feel trapped.But I’m also scared scared of losing myself, of giving too much, of caring more than I should.So I stay here, in between.Not fully letting anyone in, not fully letting the idea go.

Maybe I don’t want just “someone.”
Maybe I want something that feels right without costing my peace. Until then,
I’ll keep choosing myself even on the days I feel a little lonely.


~ Marcello

It’s like you’re describing my inner thoughts Lemoncello.

I want company… but I also love my peace. We’ve seen how things go wrong, so making new connections sometimes feels like downloading an app I know I’ll delete in three days. Still, humans are social, so I keep trying — even though people disappear faster than my motivation on Monday morning.

Honestly, I’ve accepted I’m my own best company. I’m funny, I understand my mood swings, and I never cancel plans with myself. Anyone else is just a bonus.