Galaxystar
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I tried to hold on
Even when my hands were shaking,
Even when the silence between us
Was louder than any goodbye could be.
I kept loving you quietly,
As if my silence could somehow make you stay,
As if shrinking my needs
Would finally make me enough for you.
Letting go hurts, yes.
But clinging to someone
Who was never holding me back
That’s a different kind of ache.
That’s the kind that lingers in your chest
Long after the person is gone,
Because the truth is,
They were never really there to begin with.
You weren’t mine.
Not in the way I needed you to be.
Not in the way I dreamed about
When I stayed up at night,
Staring at the ceiling,
Wondering what more I could’ve done
To make you choose me.
Still, I begged the stars for you.
I asked the universe to rewrite fate,
To bend time, to twist logic
Just so we’d make sense.
But love doesn’t work like that.
It’s not built on hope alone.
And no matter how tightly I held on,
You kept slipping through
Like water in cupped hands.
Now I’m bleeding,
Not from what you did,
But from what I did to myself
From gripping too hard
To a version of you that only existed in my mind.
From trying to stretch my heart
To fit into a space
That never made room for me.
I’ve learned this:
You don’t lose someone
Who was never yours to keep.
You only lose the illusion.
And sometimes,
That’s the deepest loss of all.
But still
I’d rather stand in the wreckage of truth
Than live another day
In a love that never truly held...