March 20 2019
You can still start from where you left!
You can still pick me from where you dropped!
I will still cancel my works to meet you on time!
I will still travel miles to see you for minutes!
I will still buy you gifts that you'll receive with zero excitements!
I will still take you to films which you won't appreciate enough!
I will still make you listen to songs with lyrics you won't even care about!
Still I recall you as a weakness no one knew about me!
Still I revisit our photographs as embarrassing possessions that one check out in closed rooms..
For the kind of smile I have been wearing when I was with you!
The face that never have I ever imagined I could have!
Still I stop for a moment when I cross the places we've been together!
Still I shiver a little when a stranger reminds you..
With their perfume.. gesture.. weird stares.. something..
Am one text away from being mad about you all over again!
Am one call away from falling for you all over again!
Remember..
The only thing I plead from you is..
Be the fuck-up you are!
Keep my hatred for you on point!
So that I never ever get back!
March 2021:
No , I think no one can keep you away from me .. not in a bad way not that physical intimacy or the fodness I'm talking about .. I tried hating you all these years every fcking day I tried my level not to think about you ..it never happened but I do act as if i hated you..
You came back to me , Helpless and void of happiness and said "why are always good to me even though I have always given you pain ?" What can I say , I cannot hate you .. I didn't even try to hate you I won't even try .. I know that you left me for someone better ..I know you wouldn't even talk to me if that someone has kept you happy , but what made you think that I won't be mad at you , that I won't ill-treat you and more than that only talking to me can give you solace ..
அன்புக்கு என்ன தெரியும் காயம்பட்ட சொல்லை செயலை குறிப்பிட்ட இனி இப்படி செய்யாத இனி இப்படி பேசாத என மன்றாடுவதை தவிர
You can still start from where you left!
You can still pick me from where you dropped!
I will still cancel my works to meet you on time!
I will still travel miles to see you for minutes!
I will still buy you gifts that you'll receive with zero excitements!
I will still take you to films which you won't appreciate enough!
I will still make you listen to songs with lyrics you won't even care about!
Still I recall you as a weakness no one knew about me!
Still I revisit our photographs as embarrassing possessions that one check out in closed rooms..
For the kind of smile I have been wearing when I was with you!
The face that never have I ever imagined I could have!
Still I stop for a moment when I cross the places we've been together!
Still I shiver a little when a stranger reminds you..
With their perfume.. gesture.. weird stares.. something..
Am one text away from being mad about you all over again!
Am one call away from falling for you all over again!
Remember..
The only thing I plead from you is..
Be the fuck-up you are!
Keep my hatred for you on point!
So that I never ever get back!
March 2021:
No , I think no one can keep you away from me .. not in a bad way not that physical intimacy or the fodness I'm talking about .. I tried hating you all these years every fcking day I tried my level not to think about you ..it never happened but I do act as if i hated you..
You came back to me , Helpless and void of happiness and said "why are always good to me even though I have always given you pain ?" What can I say , I cannot hate you .. I didn't even try to hate you I won't even try .. I know that you left me for someone better ..I know you wouldn't even talk to me if that someone has kept you happy , but what made you think that I won't be mad at you , that I won't ill-treat you and more than that only talking to me can give you solace ..
அன்புக்கு என்ன தெரியும் காயம்பட்ட சொல்லை செயலை குறிப்பிட்ட இனி இப்படி செய்யாத இனி இப்படி பேசாத என மன்றாடுவதை தவிர
Nee sari illa
and soooo fucking relatable 