Pale lips
Bags under my eyes
Alone after midnight
Too numb to cry
No friends
At least I can pretend
That everyone loves me
Except that's a lie
What happens when I die
Will people take their time
Shedding their tears
Or did I waste all my years
What happens if I stay
No promise I'll be okay'
Cause life can get hard
And it tears me apart
Bruises Wounds behind my bac
kFrom people who stabbed me
With hate in their eyes
I'm overBecause I'm a loner
My pain is my closure
Why do I exist?
i've been trying so hard to survive
sometimes I think that I wanna die
i feel so fucking guilty cuz god I'm so lucky to live my life
so I keep all the pain to myself
losing faith but nobody can tell
mom, I don't want you worried cuz that would just hurt me
so I pretend I'm fine
if you only knew
what my mind is telling me I should do
that I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry it's true
if you only knew
all the shit my brain is putting me through
you'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
i'm sorry but I need you
if you only knew
i wish I was somebody else
i'm constantly overwhelmed
now I'm falling again getting drunk with some friends
it's a silent cry for help
i wanna get better, want you to know
that I can't do this on my own
if you only knew
what my mind is telling me I should do
that i'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry it's true
if you only knew
all the shit my brain is putting me through
you'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
i'm sorry but I need youtake me out of this hell
oh, somebody help
take me out of this hell
oh, I'm not myself
i wanna tell you what my mind is telling me I should dot
hat I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry but i want to
oh, if you only knew
I've been starting to lose control
I swear I can fix anything
Anything, but me
I've been putting my heart thru hell
And I don’t want to think about anything
Anything, but me
Just give me time
I’ve been running from my mind
Need a second for my soul
Let it go
And I tried
Keepin' all of this inside
But the cracks they start to show
And I’ve been told
Boys don’t cry
But damn I need a shoulder
I’d be lying
If I said I don’t
Sometimes I’m the one that needs a little holding
If boys don’t cry
Where are these tears supposed to go?
Deathbed
Bags under my eyes
Alone after midnight
Too numb to cry
No friends
At least I can pretend
That everyone loves me
Except that's a lie
What happens when I die
Will people take their time
Shedding their tears
Or did I waste all my years
What happens if I stay
No promise I'll be okay'
Cause life can get hard
And it tears me apart
Bruises Wounds behind my bac
kFrom people who stabbed me
With hate in their eyes
I'm overBecause I'm a loner
My pain is my closure
Why do I exist?
i've been trying so hard to survive
sometimes I think that I wanna die
i feel so fucking guilty cuz god I'm so lucky to live my life
so I keep all the pain to myself
losing faith but nobody can tell
mom, I don't want you worried cuz that would just hurt me
so I pretend I'm fine
if you only knew
what my mind is telling me I should do
that I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry it's true
if you only knew
all the shit my brain is putting me through
you'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
i'm sorry but I need you
if you only knew
i wish I was somebody else
i'm constantly overwhelmed
now I'm falling again getting drunk with some friends
it's a silent cry for help
i wanna get better, want you to know
that I can't do this on my own
if you only knew
what my mind is telling me I should do
that i'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry it's true
if you only knew
all the shit my brain is putting me through
you'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
i'm sorry but I need youtake me out of this hell
oh, somebody help
take me out of this hell
oh, I'm not myself
i wanna tell you what my mind is telling me I should dot
hat I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
i'm too sad to cry but i want to
oh, if you only knew
I swear I can fix anything
Anything, but me
I've been putting my heart thru hell
And I don’t want to think about anything
Anything, but me
Just give me time
I’ve been running from my mind
Need a second for my soul
Let it go
And I tried
Keepin' all of this inside
But the cracks they start to show
And I’ve been told
Boys don’t cry
But damn I need a shoulder
I’d be lying
If I said I don’t
Sometimes I’m the one that needs a little holding
If boys don’t cry
Where are these tears supposed to go?
