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Memoir of a Misfit - S3: E1

EkaLustYa

Eternal Optimist of ZoZo
Senior's
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It’s been 3 months past my third season here. Wanted to write about it promptly by posting a blank page as I did not have anything to write about precisely, but was skeptical about it. So became lazy and slept on this topic on keeping it on digital print, until someone tried to put some sense in my head and kept saying close it properly if don’t want to continue anymore. On top of it – I happened to read a profile post by EROS, rightly pointing out how hard it is to sleep with unsaid thoughts and his quote was like this “ Its hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts”. Yes, so true and that really acted as a catalyst. So, here I am – to pour! LOL

When ZOZO has become integral part of your daily routine, it becomes very hard to sleep at night once the idea of writing about the journey kicks in strong. This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.

Before I jump into this season of events, let me give a recap of where things from the previous season.

Memoir of a Misfit Season 2


#1 LOST

#2 NOT IN TOUCH
- She is one strong lady that I have ever come across here and she might busy fixing the things in her personal life with her will, patience, and love.

#3 LOST - I was told that she was taking a break and may not be active as she had to take care of lot many other things but was promised that she will keep in touch. Last seen her about couple of months ago replying to someone’s post and before that around 9 months ago wishing on someone’s birthday. She deleted her profile later.

#4 LOST-FOUND- Had a talk with her after about 5 months of her inactivity and as usual she is very sweet. When I told her that I was going to Vegas for vacation, her first reaction was – “Don’t play hard to lose money and drink less” LOL. What a typical wife she is!! LOST AGAIN.

That’s about it when it comes to the previous season status.

Let me jump into this season’s journey which was full of agony, pain, fun, redemption, and all together a plethora of emotions. This covers only from 23NOV2023 thru 21DEC2024. I stop, right at there!

That was the most nicest period of the season from 23NOV2023 thru 09JAN2024 until ZingyZazz was brought down and moved to Beta, that was first victim of the move (as part of the migration from old UI to Beta) and with that I was too! I used to have great time with music and these four musketeers – Ooooorgaa, Meenammaa, RedWine, and Rainbow. What a wonderful tamil music that I have heard during that period and used to twist lyrics according to my convenience to flirt with them. Those flirts varied from, sponsoring date expenses of Ooorgaa and her bf, taking rainbow on date who always get ready but will never come, trying to woo RedWine to the basement, which was never materialized, and ever awesome Meenamma offering my morning coffee with a nice song!

When Hades pulled the plug, I felt as if he snatched my plateful of delicious food from my hands! Later he went on to closeMalayalam, Bengali and Telugu. Damn! It was painful hit on me, as ZOZO never seemed the same again! Only very limited people used to join Zingy and the songs used to stay for a longer time unlike been swept away in other rooms with flood of messages.
Suddenly, RedWine disappeared and the rest moved to Tamil room, but the interaction was not the same like before.


I tried to have first taste of Beta and honestly didn’t like it. I will explain why in the subsequent sections.

I like music especially when I am driving. You might say what the fuck are you yelping about? Can’t you listen your own music and drive? LOL fair enough. I get it. But the problem with me is, I want to listen others’s taste for music and delve into different genres. Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.

The subsequent months it was more horrible as the people that I used to hangout with were either not coming anymore or just plain busy with their lives or whatever. I found it very hard to have any sort of conversations with anyone and given my image, no one wants to venture into have one. So, I started asking people who used to post songs on wall – that – send me any 5 songs that they liked. They sent me once for the first time, but when I asked again, they stopped responding. LOL

On a personal front it was very tough period for me as I was between the jobs. When ZOZO has become integral part of your life, any slightest change to that regular routine or how people behave, it effects your life in a different way! As the popular saying goes “ site might be virtual, but emotions are not” – so true! Isn’t it? I have gone silent for most of the period and there were days where I didn’t type any single message either on the wall or in anyone’s private window. It was just plain bird watching. LOL

One fine day, I thought- Why I was struggling like this and trying to hold up? Lets try in a different way – back to the basics – boom! Anyway this old UI will be gone – if not now, in immediate future. Then, why can’t I do a slog hitting just like T20? So I unleashed millions of IDs, precisely one ID per week. When I know the co-ordinates of ZOZO ballroom precisely so well, I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above. As I have mentioned in previous seasons, When I change an ID, I don’t message the people that I already know feigning as a different guy. If at all I do message them, I admit myself upfront who I am. In one of those bored phases, I messaged a lady that I already know identifying who I am and asking – “ Is all well/ Is everything alright” – her immediate response was “cockroach”. Damn! Really? What did I do wrong? She knows me very well and had wonderful conversations in the past. Actually that hit me real hard and also gave me an opportunity to re-calibrate myself. The problem with me is, when I observe people, when my perceptions say that,they are not okay and there is something off- then I think a might little conversation would help?! May be? Then I tend to ask “ Is all well”, it was with pure genuinity and absolutely no other ulterior motives in it. In asking so, there is no gender discrimination in it. I ask all irrespective of gender when I find something is not okay. By the way- what am I doing here? Am I acting like a fucking messiah? People will be alright without any help too, right? And the what the fucking help could I offer anyway? Then I realized – “Fuck – the fucking fault is mine!” and on retrospection – when I asked people to send 5 songs and they stopped sending after the first time, oh! Did they feel like I was “Cock-Roach-Ing”? Damn! Could be! Not their fault. Just like that I found a replaceable word for “Approaching” as “Cock-Roach-Ing” ! LOL. What an invention out of calamity!

What I realized in this “ Million IDs” journey was, I kept encountering the same people that I had talked to in their different IDs! LOL. Damn! All the people are like recycled plastic skins! It was like baggage carousel in the airport. In the end – it was like I don’t have anyone left, that I don’t know of! People are bored, just like me!! All through this I was just praying Hades! Bring it down man bring it down the rest of the rooms, so that I can quit! But that was not happening, and I was going like an addict!

#1 In this journey of slog hitting, one fine day around mid- September, I found this wonderful young lady! We talked, and talked, and talked some more – on the end when I asked her “shall we be friends”, her response was “ why not, as long as you don’t force me on anything which I don’t like to talk about or do, we can be friends” - That’s good enough of deal which I cant refuse! Just like that we became friends! What I liked in her? #1 She always keeps her message as the last one in any conversation. I mean, I don’t need to wait for her response, as she is always prompt. #2 No spelling mistakes, how ever long the reply is! #3 Sense of humor, I would say – a notch up than me! Let me give you an example on this. One day she said “ Hey, I am damn tired my brain not working can I borrow yours anyway that’s idle and not using for anything else” and I replied “ yeah my brain is idle hanging between my legs, grab it and use it how ever you want” – in 25 seconds flat – her response was “ oh wow, how nice of you, I can cut that into dozen other pieces of brains and thank you for saving on anesthesia” Damn! I must be careful LOL.

In one of the conversations, she was mentioning about something which was only exclusive to forum and I said I read it. Oh! Did I slip there?!! Straight came the question – what’s my ID there? I admitted who I am and how active I am in forum reading all the posts. And then on our conversations became more meaningful and gossiping. My day literally starts with her and ends with her. Thank you for all your time Young Lady!


#2 Met another wonderful writer, but that was through forum messages as she is mostly busy on chatroom walls and didn’t want to disturb her there. (usually, the users who every active on walls, have very less time to respond and most of the times they don’t even reply and always skeptical). I responded to one of her posts via forum private messages and talked about how nice it was and the improvement areas as it was genuine feedback. Surprisingly, she responded in a positive way and I have become admirer of her and she became very good friend which is different altogether given how I have seen her on wall. Mostly we talk about various writings in a constructive way – Thank You!

Mostly that was about it.

Since this is my last post in this series, I wanted to cover few other things, though it’s none of my business!


Observations: (Disclaimer – These are just observations and have no ulterior motives of hurting anyone.)

#1 Have seen lot of couples who are in love here. However, apart from two ladies who break the barriers of geographically and diagonally opposite corners of the globe defying all the odds of race, gender, and the language, but for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! They same speak the same language including the same dialect, I guess. People might talk and have conversations in different languages, but when it comes to the vibes and love – Langugae matters?! Yes, looks like it, which is fairly understandable too, as we can relate what we talk depending on their day-to-day life and successfully relate the memories that they had by way of Vadivel or Brahmi Memes. Both are different right? We can’t connect when its different! Of course a story ( any story LOL) in local language is more effective than in any other language! Right? For example: a punjabi connects to an other Punjabi, or a Marathi to another Marathi- likewise. To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!


#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list compared to other rooms. Its not that there is no abuse in otherrooms but when it comes to this room. its damn high and failed to curtail. Why? I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group. This is always the pattern and will be continued as long the people who controls and does the crime are the same.

#3 Secret Santa Season 1 was a wonderfully managed event, and the organizers pulled it off in a meticulous way without any hiccups. This event infused more life into the forum and gave an opportunity to shake of any inhibitions and paving the way for participants to express more. I read every task and the execution of it and surprised to see their creativity though I haven’t participated.

Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)

#1 When I was between the jobs as I explained above- was busy, disoriented and lost interest as I didn’t find the people I usually talk to. That turned out as I was very busy in other site LOL. I recently came to know that, someone created an ID exactly like mine, along with the same dp/pfp that I use it here, and on the top of it he/she created exactly the same I used to have it here in ZOZO. Lol what a fucking moronic idea!

FACT: Nope, that’s not me. I like it here.


#2 I call someone as “RedWine”, and when there was an ID created in old UI exactly like this, people rumored that it was me.
FACT:Nope, not me. I don’t create female IDs as my grandma once said “When you wish that others shouldn’t be doing certain things to you, you shouldn’t be doing the same things to others” (ఇతరులు నీకేం చేయకూడదని నువ్వు అనుకుంటావో, అదే నువ్వు ఇతరులకి చెయ్యకు!)


Why I didn’t like Beta: ( This is purely mine and not speaking for anyone else- and these are all technical and I’m not touching upon any of the features it offers- BUT)

#1 I use iPhone for chat and beta is not compatible with safari browser. I tried different browsers to circumvent but those browsers irritate me and iPhone is a bitch. But what to do, I love using it. For every message, I need to resize the window to fit in the screen.

#2 After posting a song and successfully listening to it, when I tried to post another and click – I get a message “ sign into prove that you are not a bot”. Seriously? It worked a minute ago and I still see the messages scrolling up on wall, right? I refresh, relog but it didn’t work immediately at all. That gave me real frustration.

#3 Okay, I messaged in private and wait for a reply and also see that messages are being scrolled on wall and I am under the impression that I am still logged in and active. I do get immediate reply from that particular person and wonder why I didn’t get. I refresh, I see a message which was sent 7 minutes ago, NOW. In order to get messages, I need to keep refreshing!

#4 okay, this Beta didn’t work and I thought- let me try SC. When I tried to login , I got a message “ I am banned” and when I checked with Aphrodite and her reply was “ I don’t see that name in the ban list, may be you picked up a banned IP”. Double Dhamaka! LOL

With all these issues I have decided to wait until the site gets stable and start working the way I wanted it to work. Will mostly confined to Forum and will make it as my base or basement in which ever the way it works lol. Am I giving the build up like oh! You guys will miss me? LOL. Nope not all! Actually it’s the other way round. I miss you guys. Nope, this is not a good bye post at all, and I will be around and unfortunately not going anywhere!

Reaching a point in life ( zozo) where the need to impress others dissipates is a profound milestone. It signifies a shift in focus and itself on its own a liberation. The journey to this point often involved profoundly a self-discovery. The realization dawns that genuine fulfillment stems from being true to oneself rather than confirming to external standards. Touchwood was that I never entangled in a web of comparison and conformity. I maneuvered with my utmost freedom to break free any defined cycles, if there are any. In the existential struggle each moment weaves a story and every experience adds a thread to the masterpiece of life.

I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace, I do clearly understand and respect their struggles. What I do not understand is, in technological digital era, we are just one message away if they really want to convey about what’s happening. When it’s not there, it’s not there as simple as that. We are just dormant door mats LOL.

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.

Thank you all!
( End of the series )

~EkaLustYa
21JAN2025


( Note: I might edit to correct spelling mistakes or add anything that I missed )
 
It’s been 3 months past my third season here. Wanted to write about it promptly by posting a blank page as I did not have anything to write about precisely, but was skeptical about it. So became lazy and slept on this topic on keeping it on digital print, until someone tried to put some sense in my head and kept saying close it properly if don’t want to continue anymore. On top of it – I happened to read a profile post by EROS, rightly pointing out how hard it is to sleep with unsaid thoughts and his quote was like this “ Its hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts”. Yes, so true and that really acted as a catalyst. So, here I am – to pour! LOL

When ZOZO has become integral part of your daily routine, it becomes very hard to sleep at night once the idea of writing about the journey kicks in strong. This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.

Before I jump into this season of events, let me give a recap of where things from the previous season.

Memoir of a Misfit Season 2


#1 LOST

#2 NOT IN TOUCH
- She is one strong lady that I have ever come across here and she might busy fixing the things in her personal life with her will, patience, and love.

#3 LOST - I was told that she was taking a break and may not be active as she had to take care of lot many other things but was promised that she will keep in touch. Last seen her about couple of months ago replying to someone’s post and before that around 9 months ago wishing on someone’s birthday. She deleted her profile later.

#4 LOST-FOUND- Had a talk with her after about 5 months of her inactivity and as usual she is very sweet. When I told her that I was going to Vegas for vacation, her first reaction was – “Don’t play hard to lose money and drink less” LOL. What a typical wife she is!! LOST AGAIN.

That’s about it when it comes to the previous season status.

Let me jump into this season’s journey which was full of agony, pain, fun, redemption, and all together a plethora of emotions. This covers only from 23NOV2023 thru 21DEC2024. I stop, right at there!

That was the most nicest period of the season from 23NOV2023 thru 09JAN2024 until ZingyZazz was brought down and moved to Beta, that was first victim of the move (as part of the migration from old UI to Beta) and with that I was too! I used to have great time with music and these four musketeers – Ooooorgaa, Meenammaa, RedWine, and Rainbow. What a wonderful tamil music that I have heard during that period and used to twist lyrics according to my convenience to flirt with them. Those flirts varied from, sponsoring date expenses of Ooorgaa and her bf, taking rainbow on date who always get ready but will never come, trying to woo RedWine to the basement, which was never materialized, and ever awesome Meenamma offering my morning coffee with a nice song!

When Hades pulled the plug, I felt as if he snatched my plateful of delicious food from my hands! Later he went on to closeMalayalam, Bengali and Telugu. Damn! It was painful hit on me, as ZOZO never seemed the same again! Only very limited people used to join Zingy and the songs used to stay for a longer time unlike been swept away in other rooms with flood of messages.
Suddenly, RedWine disappeared and the rest moved to Tamil room, but the interaction was not the same like before.


I tried to have first taste of Beta and honestly didn’t like it. I will explain why in the subsequent sections.

I like music especially when I am driving. You might say what the fuck are you yelping about? Can’t you listen your own music and drive? LOL fair enough. I get it. But the problem with me is, I want to listen others’s taste for music and delve into different genres. Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.

The subsequent months it was more horrible as the people that I used to hangout with were either not coming anymore or just plain busy with their lives or whatever. I found it very hard to have any sort of conversations with anyone and given my image, no one wants to venture into have one. So, I started asking people who used to post songs on wall – that – send me any 5 songs that they liked. They sent me once for the first time, but when I asked again, they stopped responding. LOL

On a personal front it was very tough period for me as I was between the jobs. When ZOZO has become integral part of your life, any slightest change to that regular routine or how people behave, it effects your life in a different way! As the popular saying goes “ site might be virtual, but emotions are not” – so true! Isn’t it? I have gone silent for most of the period and there were days where I didn’t type any single message either on the wall or in anyone’s private window. It was just plain bird watching. LOL

One fine day, I thought- Why I was struggling like this and trying to hold up? Lets try in a different way – back to the basics – boom! Anyway this old UI will be gone – if not now, in immediate future. Then, why can’t I do a slog hitting just like T20? So I unleashed millions of IDs, precisely one ID per week. When I know the co-ordinates of ZOZO ballroom precisely so well, I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above. As I have mentioned in previous seasons, When I change an ID, I don’t message the people that I already know feigning as a different guy. If at all I do message them, I admit myself upfront who I am. In one of those bored phases, I messaged a lady that I already know identifying who I am and asking – “ Is all well/ Is everything alright” – her immediate response was “cockroach”. Damn! Really? What did I do wrong? She knows me very well and had wonderful conversations in the past. Actually that hit me real hard and also gave me an opportunity to re-calibrate myself. The problem with me is, when I observe people, when my perceptions say that,they are not okay and there is something off- then I think a might little conversation would help?! May be? Then I tend to ask “ Is all well”, it was with pure genuinity and absolutely no other ulterior motives in it. In asking so, there is no gender discrimination in it. I ask all irrespective of gender when I find something is not okay. By the way- what am I doing here? Am I acting like a fucking messiah? People will be alright without any help too, right? And the what the fucking help could I offer anyway? Then I realized – “Fuck – the fucking fault is mine!” and on retrospection – when I asked people to send 5 songs and they stopped sending after the first time, oh! Did they feel like I was “Cock-Roach-Ing”? Damn! Could be! Not their fault. Just like that I found a replaceable word for “Approaching” as “Cock-Roach-Ing” ! LOL. What an invention out of calamity!

What I realized in this “ Million IDs” journey was, I kept encountering the same people that I had talked to in their different IDs! LOL. Damn! All the people are like recycled plastic skins! It was like baggage carousel in the airport. In the end – it was like I don’t have anyone left, that I don’t know of! People are bored, just like me!! All through this I was just praying Hades! Bring it down man bring it down the rest of the rooms, so that I can quit! But that was not happening, and I was going like an addict!

#1 In this journey of slog hitting, one fine day around mid- September, I found this wonderful young lady! We talked, and talked, and talked some more – on the end when I asked her “shall we be friends”, her response was “ why not, as long as you don’t force me on anything which I don’t like to talk about or do, we can be friends” - That’s good enough of deal which I cant refuse! Just like that we became friends! What I liked in her? #1 She always keeps her message as the last one in any conversation. I mean, I don’t need to wait for her response, as she is always prompt. #2 No spelling mistakes, how ever long the reply is! #3 Sense of humor, I would say – a notch up than me! Let me give you an example on this. One day she said “ Hey, I am damn tired my brain not working can I borrow yours anyway that’s idle and not using for anything else” and I replied “ yeah my brain is idle hanging between my legs, grab it and use it how ever you want” – in 25 seconds flat – her response was “ oh wow, how nice of you, I can cut that into dozen other pieces of brains and thank you for saving on anesthesia” Damn! I must be careful LOL.

In one of the conversations, she was mentioning about something which was only exclusive to forum and I said I read it. Oh! Did I slip there?!! Straight came the question – what’s my ID there? I admitted who I am and how active I am in forum reading all the posts. And then on our conversations became more meaningful and gossiping. My day literally starts with her and ends with her. Thank you for all your time Young Lady!


#2 Met another wonderful writer, but that was through forum messages as she is mostly busy on chatroom walls and didn’t want to disturb her there. (usually, the users who every active on walls, have very less time to respond and most of the times they don’t even reply and always skeptical). I responded to one of her posts via forum private messages and talked about how nice it was and the improvement areas as it was genuine feedback. Surprisingly, she responded in a positive way and I have become admirer of her and she became very good friend which is different altogether given how I have seen her on wall. Mostly we talk about various writings in a constructive way – Thank You!

Mostly that was about it.

Since this is my last post in this series, I wanted to cover few other things, though it’s none of my business!


Observations: (Disclaimer – These are just observations and have no ulterior motives of hurting anyone.)

#1 Have seen lot of couples who are in love here. However, apart from two ladies who break the barriers of geographically and diagonally opposite corners of the globe defying all the odds of race, gender, and the language, but for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! They same speak the same language including the same dialect, I guess. People might talk and have conversations in different languages, but when it comes to the vibes and love – Langugae matters?! Yes, looks like it, which is fairly understandable too, as we can relate what we talk depending on their day-to-day life and successfully relate the memories that they had by way of Vadivel or Brahmi Memes. Both are different right? We can’t connect when its different! Of course a story ( any story LOL) in local language is more effective than in any other language! Right? For example: a punjabi connects to an other Punjabi, or a Marathi to another Marathi- likewise. To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!


#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list compared to other rooms. Its not that there is no abuse in otherrooms but when it comes to this room. its damn high and failed to curtail. Why? I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group. This is always the pattern and will be continued as long the people who controls and does the crime are the same.

#3 Secret Santa Season 1 was a wonderfully managed event, and the organizers pulled it off in a meticulous way without any hiccups. This event infused more life into the forum and gave an opportunity to shake of any inhibitions and paving the way for participants to express more. I read every task and the execution of it and surprised to see their creativity though I haven’t participated.

Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)

#1 When I was between the jobs as I explained above- was busy, disoriented and lost interest as I didn’t find the people I usually talk to. That turned out as I was very busy in other site LOL. I recently came to know that, someone created an ID exactly like mine, along with the same dp/pfp that I use it here, and on the top of it he/she created exactly the same I used to have it here in ZOZO. Lol what a fucking moronic idea!

FACT: Nope, that’s not me. I like it here.


#2 I call someone as “RedWine”, and when there was an ID created in old UI exactly like this, people rumored that it was me.
FACT:Nope, not me. I don’t create female IDs as my grandma once said “When you wish that others shouldn’t be doing certain things to you, you shouldn’t be doing the same things to others” (ఇతరులు నీకేం చేయకూడదని నువ్వు అనుకుంటావో, అదే నువ్వు ఇతరులకి చెయ్యకు!)


Why I didn’t like Beta: ( This is purely mine and not speaking for anyone else- and these are all technical and I’m not touching upon any of the features it offers- BUT)

#1 I use iPhone for chat and beta is not compatible with safari browser. I tried different browsers to circumvent but those browsers irritate me and iPhone is a bitch. But what to do, I love using it. For every message, I need to resize the window to fit in the screen.

#2 After posting a song and successfully listening to it, when I tried to post another and click – I get a message “ sign into prove that you are not a bot”. Seriously? It worked a minute ago and I still see the messages scrolling up on wall, right? I refresh, relog but it didn’t work immediately at all. That gave me real frustration.

#3 Okay, I messaged in private and wait for a reply and also see that messages are being scrolled on wall and I am under the impression that I am still logged in and active. I do get immediate reply from that particular person and wonder why I didn’t get. I refresh, I see a message which was sent 7 minutes ago, NOW. In order to get messages, I need to keep refreshing!

#4 okay, this Beta didn’t work and I thought- let me try SC. When I tried to login , I got a message “ I am banned” and when I checked with Aphrodite and her reply was “ I don’t see that name in the ban list, may be you picked up a banned IP”. Double Dhamaka! LOL

With all these issues I have decided to wait until the site gets stable and start working the way I wanted it to work. Will mostly confined to Forum and will make it as my base or basement in which ever the way it works lol. Am I giving the build up like oh! You guys will miss me? LOL. Nope not all! Actually it’s the other way round. I miss you guys. Nope, this is not a good bye post at all, and I will be around and unfortunately not going anywhere!

Reaching a point in life ( zozo) where the need to impress others dissipates is a profound milestone. It signifies a shift in focus and itself on its own a liberation. The journey to this point often involved profoundly a self-discovery. The realization dawns that genuine fulfillment stems from being true to oneself rather than confirming to external standards. Touchwood was that I never entangled in a web of comparison and conformity. I maneuvered with my utmost freedom to break free any defined cycles, if there are any. In the existential struggle each moment weaves a story and every experience adds a thread to the masterpiece of life.

I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace, I do clearly understand and respect their struggles. What I do not understand is, in technological digital era, we are just one message away if they really want to convey about what’s happening. When it’s not there, it’s not there as simple as that. We are just dormant door mats LOL.

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.

Thank you all!
( End of the series )

~EkaLustYa
21JAN2025


( Note: I might edit to correct spelling mistakes or add anything that I missed )
A commented wid out *thy* n *huns*....... (sry but it took me lotta tym to check over d words to ensure it) Is dis A *hunless* reply? LOL!

As its the off tym of the morn lemme scribble a reply- It won't cum as good as u....

Coming to the point, the narrative was damn nyc Eka. 'm bug outta yr dedication to scribble dis Long Long paras down. (not gonna act as an innocent chick, I replied the writer n his pvts ryt after reading dis.)

Oops
I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace
I guess, not only them.

Lemme put it up.

I used to chat wid a person (namely X). He isn't outta glimpse now...... tho I donn have any bother 4 the very X now, (just a sec, y did I quote dis?) I donn turn my pages back (as Priyanka Chopra said), but my emotional wits still faces a dilemma- whether to chim in ya stay outta the situations dat involve the presence of X.

Y do I feel the same abt Hindi room? Ahem, prolly every one feels the same..

N for song, I w'd send u a whole ya u tube video *bucket* (lol play) list.

Outta tym, 'll edit it if der s any corrections

Enjoyed reading. @EkaLustYa

Kudoos!
 
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A commented wid out *thy* n *huns*....... (sry but it took me lotta tym to check over d words to ensure it) Is dis A *hunless* reply? LOL!

As its the off tym of the morn lemme scribble a reply- It won't cum as good as u....

Coming to the point, the narrative was damn nyc Eka. 'm bug outta yr dedication to scribble dis Long Long paras down. (not gonna act as an innocent chick, I replied the writer n his pvts ryt after reading dis.)

Oops

I guess, not only them.

Lemme put it up.

I used to chat wid a person (namely X). He isn't outta glimpse now...... tho I donn have any bother 4 the very X now, (just a sec, y did I quote dis?) I donn turn my pages back (as Priyanka Chopra said), but my emotional wits still faces a dilemma- whether to chim in ya stay outta the situations dat involve the presence of X.

Y do I feel the same abt Hindi room? Ahem, prolly every one feels the same..

N for song, I w'd send u a whole ya u tube video *bucket* (lol play) list.

Outta tym, 'll edit it if der s any corrections

Enjoyed reading. @EkaLustYa

Kudoos!
Nope no edits or corrections needed - thanks for sharing some time to read and comment in spite of your busy schedule.
 
It’s been 3 months past my third season here. Wanted to write about it promptly by posting a blank page as I did not have anything to write about precisely, but was skeptical about it. So became lazy and slept on this topic on keeping it on digital print, until someone tried to put some sense in my head and kept saying close it properly if don’t want to continue anymore. On top of it – I happened to read a profile post by EROS, rightly pointing out how hard it is to sleep with unsaid thoughts and his quote was like this “ Its hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts”. Yes, so true and that really acted as a catalyst. So, here I am – to pour! LOL

When ZOZO has become integral part of your daily routine, it becomes very hard to sleep at night once the idea of writing about the journey kicks in strong. This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.

Before I jump into this season of events, let me give a recap of where things from the previous season.

Memoir of a Misfit Season 2


#1 LOST

#2 NOT IN TOUCH
- She is one strong lady that I have ever come across here and she might busy fixing the things in her personal life with her will, patience, and love.

#3 LOST - I was told that she was taking a break and may not be active as she had to take care of lot many other things but was promised that she will keep in touch. Last seen her about couple of months ago replying to someone’s post and before that around 9 months ago wishing on someone’s birthday. She deleted her profile later.

#4 LOST-FOUND- Had a talk with her after about 5 months of her inactivity and as usual she is very sweet. When I told her that I was going to Vegas for vacation, her first reaction was – “Don’t play hard to lose money and drink less” LOL. What a typical wife she is!! LOST AGAIN.

That’s about it when it comes to the previous season status.

Let me jump into this season’s journey which was full of agony, pain, fun, redemption, and all together a plethora of emotions. This covers only from 23NOV2023 thru 21DEC2024. I stop, right at there!

That was the most nicest period of the season from 23NOV2023 thru 09JAN2024 until ZingyZazz was brought down and moved to Beta, that was first victim of the move (as part of the migration from old UI to Beta) and with that I was too! I used to have great time with music and these four musketeers – Ooooorgaa, Meenammaa, RedWine, and Rainbow. What a wonderful tamil music that I have heard during that period and used to twist lyrics according to my convenience to flirt with them. Those flirts varied from, sponsoring date expenses of Ooorgaa and her bf, taking rainbow on date who always get ready but will never come, trying to woo RedWine to the basement, which was never materialized, and ever awesome Meenamma offering my morning coffee with a nice song!

When Hades pulled the plug, I felt as if he snatched my plateful of delicious food from my hands! Later he went on to closeMalayalam, Bengali and Telugu. Damn! It was painful hit on me, as ZOZO never seemed the same again! Only very limited people used to join Zingy and the songs used to stay for a longer time unlike been swept away in other rooms with flood of messages.
Suddenly, RedWine disappeared and the rest moved to Tamil room, but the interaction was not the same like before.


I tried to have first taste of Beta and honestly didn’t like it. I will explain why in the subsequent sections.

I like music especially when I am driving. You might say what the fuck are you yelping about? Can’t you listen your own music and drive? LOL fair enough. I get it. But the problem with me is, I want to listen others’s taste for music and delve into different genres. Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.

The subsequent months it was more horrible as the people that I used to hangout with were either not coming anymore or just plain busy with their lives or whatever. I found it very hard to have any sort of conversations with anyone and given my image, no one wants to venture into have one. So, I started asking people who used to post songs on wall – that – send me any 5 songs that they liked. They sent me once for the first time, but when I asked again, they stopped responding. LOL

On a personal front it was very tough period for me as I was between the jobs. When ZOZO has become integral part of your life, any slightest change to that regular routine or how people behave, it effects your life in a different way! As the popular saying goes “ site might be virtual, but emotions are not” – so true! Isn’t it? I have gone silent for most of the period and there were days where I didn’t type any single message either on the wall or in anyone’s private window. It was just plain bird watching. LOL

One fine day, I thought- Why I was struggling like this and trying to hold up? Lets try in a different way – back to the basics – boom! Anyway this old UI will be gone – if not now, in immediate future. Then, why can’t I do a slog hitting just like T20? So I unleashed millions of IDs, precisely one ID per week. When I know the co-ordinates of ZOZO ballroom precisely so well, I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above. As I have mentioned in previous seasons, When I change an ID, I don’t message the people that I already know feigning as a different guy. If at all I do message them, I admit myself upfront who I am. In one of those bored phases, I messaged a lady that I already know identifying who I am and asking – “ Is all well/ Is everything alright” – her immediate response was “cockroach”. Damn! Really? What did I do wrong? She knows me very well and had wonderful conversations in the past. Actually that hit me real hard and also gave me an opportunity to re-calibrate myself. The problem with me is, when I observe people, when my perceptions say that,they are not okay and there is something off- then I think a might little conversation would help?! May be? Then I tend to ask “ Is all well”, it was with pure genuinity and absolutely no other ulterior motives in it. In asking so, there is no gender discrimination in it. I ask all irrespective of gender when I find something is not okay. By the way- what am I doing here? Am I acting like a fucking messiah? People will be alright without any help too, right? And the what the fucking help could I offer anyway? Then I realized – “Fuck – the fucking fault is mine!” and on retrospection – when I asked people to send 5 songs and they stopped sending after the first time, oh! Did they feel like I was “Cock-Roach-Ing”? Damn! Could be! Not their fault. Just like that I found a replaceable word for “Approaching” as “Cock-Roach-Ing” ! LOL. What an invention out of calamity!

What I realized in this “ Million IDs” journey was, I kept encountering the same people that I had talked to in their different IDs! LOL. Damn! All the people are like recycled plastic skins! It was like baggage carousel in the airport. In the end – it was like I don’t have anyone left, that I don’t know of! People are bored, just like me!! All through this I was just praying Hades! Bring it down man bring it down the rest of the rooms, so that I can quit! But that was not happening, and I was going like an addict!

#1 In this journey of slog hitting, one fine day around mid- September, I found this wonderful young lady! We talked, and talked, and talked some more – on the end when I asked her “shall we be friends”, her response was “ why not, as long as you don’t force me on anything which I don’t like to talk about or do, we can be friends” - That’s good enough of deal which I cant refuse! Just like that we became friends! What I liked in her? #1 She always keeps her message as the last one in any conversation. I mean, I don’t need to wait for her response, as she is always prompt. #2 No spelling mistakes, how ever long the reply is! #3 Sense of humor, I would say – a notch up than me! Let me give you an example on this. One day she said “ Hey, I am damn tired my brain not working can I borrow yours anyway that’s idle and not using for anything else” and I replied “ yeah my brain is idle hanging between my legs, grab it and use it how ever you want” – in 25 seconds flat – her response was “ oh wow, how nice of you, I can cut that into dozen other pieces of brains and thank you for saving on anesthesia” Damn! I must be careful LOL.

In one of the conversations, she was mentioning about something which was only exclusive to forum and I said I read it. Oh! Did I slip there?!! Straight came the question – what’s my ID there? I admitted who I am and how active I am in forum reading all the posts. And then on our conversations became more meaningful and gossiping. My day literally starts with her and ends with her. Thank you for all your time Young Lady!


#2 Met another wonderful writer, but that was through forum messages as she is mostly busy on chatroom walls and didn’t want to disturb her there. (usually, the users who every active on walls, have very less time to respond and most of the times they don’t even reply and always skeptical). I responded to one of her posts via forum private messages and talked about how nice it was and the improvement areas as it was genuine feedback. Surprisingly, she responded in a positive way and I have become admirer of her and she became very good friend which is different altogether given how I have seen her on wall. Mostly we talk about various writings in a constructive way – Thank You!

Mostly that was about it.

Since this is my last post in this series, I wanted to cover few other things, though it’s none of my business!


Observations: (Disclaimer – These are just observations and have no ulterior motives of hurting anyone.)

#1 Have seen lot of couples who are in love here. However, apart from two ladies who break the barriers of geographically and diagonally opposite corners of the globe defying all the odds of race, gender, and the language, but for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! They same speak the same language including the same dialect, I guess. People might talk and have conversations in different languages, but when it comes to the vibes and love – Langugae matters?! Yes, looks like it, which is fairly understandable too, as we can relate what we talk depending on their day-to-day life and successfully relate the memories that they had by way of Vadivel or Brahmi Memes. Both are different right? We can’t connect when its different! Of course a story ( any story LOL) in local language is more effective than in any other language! Right? For example: a punjabi connects to an other Punjabi, or a Marathi to another Marathi- likewise. To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!


#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list compared to other rooms. Its not that there is no abuse in otherrooms but when it comes to this room. its damn high and failed to curtail. Why? I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group. This is always the pattern and will be continued as long the people who controls and does the crime are the same.

#3 Secret Santa Season 1 was a wonderfully managed event, and the organizers pulled it off in a meticulous way without any hiccups. This event infused more life into the forum and gave an opportunity to shake of any inhibitions and paving the way for participants to express more. I read every task and the execution of it and surprised to see their creativity though I haven’t participated.

Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)

#1 When I was between the jobs as I explained above- was busy, disoriented and lost interest as I didn’t find the people I usually talk to. That turned out as I was very busy in other site LOL. I recently came to know that, someone created an ID exactly like mine, along with the same dp/pfp that I use it here, and on the top of it he/she created exactly the same I used to have it here in ZOZO. Lol what a fucking moronic idea!

FACT: Nope, that’s not me. I like it here.


#2 I call someone as “RedWine”, and when there was an ID created in old UI exactly like this, people rumored that it was me.
FACT:Nope, not me. I don’t create female IDs as my grandma once said “When you wish that others shouldn’t be doing certain things to you, you shouldn’t be doing the same things to others” (ఇతరులు నీకేం చేయకూడదని నువ్వు అనుకుంటావో, అదే నువ్వు ఇతరులకి చెయ్యకు!)


Why I didn’t like Beta: ( This is purely mine and not speaking for anyone else- and these are all technical and I’m not touching upon any of the features it offers- BUT)

#1 I use iPhone for chat and beta is not compatible with safari browser. I tried different browsers to circumvent but those browsers irritate me and iPhone is a bitch. But what to do, I love using it. For every message, I need to resize the window to fit in the screen.

#2 After posting a song and successfully listening to it, when I tried to post another and click – I get a message “ sign into prove that you are not a bot”. Seriously? It worked a minute ago and I still see the messages scrolling up on wall, right? I refresh, relog but it didn’t work immediately at all. That gave me real frustration.

#3 Okay, I messaged in private and wait for a reply and also see that messages are being scrolled on wall and I am under the impression that I am still logged in and active. I do get immediate reply from that particular person and wonder why I didn’t get. I refresh, I see a message which was sent 7 minutes ago, NOW. In order to get messages, I need to keep refreshing!

#4 okay, this Beta didn’t work and I thought- let me try SC. When I tried to login , I got a message “ I am banned” and when I checked with Aphrodite and her reply was “ I don’t see that name in the ban list, may be you picked up a banned IP”. Double Dhamaka! LOL

With all these issues I have decided to wait until the site gets stable and start working the way I wanted it to work. Will mostly confined to Forum and will make it as my base or basement in which ever the way it works lol. Am I giving the build up like oh! You guys will miss me? LOL. Nope not all! Actually it’s the other way round. I miss you guys. Nope, this is not a good bye post at all, and I will be around and unfortunately not going anywhere!

Reaching a point in life ( zozo) where the need to impress others dissipates is a profound milestone. It signifies a shift in focus and itself on its own a liberation. The journey to this point often involved profoundly a self-discovery. The realization dawns that genuine fulfillment stems from being true to oneself rather than confirming to external standards. Touchwood was that I never entangled in a web of comparison and conformity. I maneuvered with my utmost freedom to break free any defined cycles, if there are any. In the existential struggle each moment weaves a story and every experience adds a thread to the masterpiece of life.

I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace, I do clearly understand and respect their struggles. What I do not understand is, in technological digital era, we are just one message away if they really want to convey about what’s happening. When it’s not there, it’s not there as simple as that. We are just dormant door mats LOL.

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.

Thank you all!
( End of the series )

~EkaLustYa
21JAN2025


( Note: I might edit to correct spelling mistakes or add anything that I missed )
How much time you take to write this ??? I mean it's too long and you explained things ......you have need time to set scenes and then write
 
I never thought that you have mentioned me n our dating
:giggle:
we aren't that much close but still i can never forget our chitchats.... Thank you to mention of this thread Ekaaa.....
Our dating also will be pending n am waiting also :Cwl:
 
Wait whot?
The memoir is finally here!
I wasn’t expecting it especially since it was already past the due date.
So jumped right in and started reading immediately but took my time to reply.

This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.
Final!!! Ohhh, I was thinking about requesting a spot in your journalbut I guess not every dream comes true, Right?!
#1 LOST
#2 NOT IN TOUCH
-
#3 LOST -
#4 LOST-FOUND- LOST AGAIN.
Why do people from the last memoir always lost in the next episode?
Like some forgotten words fading away as time turns pages :-(

Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.
Well well! I have to agree with you on this one, I’ve explored more music here than I ever did back in my cocoon.
I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above.
Oooooo!!!! I hope it's not what i think it's "wink wink" XD
My day literally starts with her and ends with her.
Ahhhhhh! so that’s what was keeping you occupied.
But for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!
Not really. I disagree with you on this. None of my friends or my special someone share any linguistic similarities with me. To me, it’s all about the right people, at the right time, with the right energy that resonates with yours. When that connection happens things like time, place or other barriers become irrelevant.
Maybe this year try looking at it from my perspective. :)

#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list. I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group.
Just like that you captured the reality of that room perfectly—no filters, no masks, just the truth as it is.
Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)
My honest reaction :
Well well! someone’s got fans left, right, and center! (not sure about deep and above) XD:p

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.
Oh! what do we have here, Not a moron I must say but a complex soul with a skeptical gaze and a hint of hidden depths. If it’s you, brace yourself for a wall filled with songs.(Jk I'm too lazy for that)

TBH you summed up your entire year so beautifully capturing everything in such a small space and concluding it gracefully.
I do hope you add something next year too, that’s just me hoping because I truly enjoy reading about people’s perspectives and experiences.

Thank you for sharing your memoir.<3
(Please excuse the length of my reply lol!).
 
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Wait whot?
The memoir is finally here!
I wasn’t expecting it especially since it was already past the due date.
So jumped right in and started reading immediately but took my time to reply.
First of all - I honestly appreciate your time and effort to read through and dissecting well enough the way only you could! So it deserves a proper reply from me. So working on it. lol did I make you wait on memoir ? I didn’t know that people would be so curious about it. Glad that I found one!
Final!!! Ohhh, I was thinking about requesting a spot in your journalbut I guess not every dream comes true, Right?!
Shhhhhhhh whisper your dreams lol - I might consider and change my mind to continue in an inclusive way ! ( should I add a wink here )
Why do people from the last memoir always lost in the next episode?
Like some forgotten words fading away as time turns pages :-(
There could be lot of several reasons beyond my understanding. But two things might be definitely true - #1 people have their priorities and struggles which are beyond our comprehension- so have to respect their decisions #2. As it’s like a journey, every one gets down when their destination comes or change their seats realizing that they shouldn’t be with a moron like me. lol ( just thinking out the possibilities loud). Luckily - I have come across wonderful good souls, so I can’t attribute “ changing seats theory to them “
Well well! I have to agree with you on this one, I’ve explored more music here than I ever did back in my cocoon.
Thanks for agreeing ! Yes, I think that’s the only way to explore ( listening to others’ tastes )
Oooooo!!!! I hope it's not what i think it's "wink wink" XD
lol - shhhhhhhh - may be that might exactly what you it is ! ( wink )
Not really. I disagree with you on this. None of my friends or my special someone share any linguistic similarities with me. To me, it’s all about the right people, at the right time, with the right energy that resonates with yours. When that connection happens things like time, place or other barriers become irrelevant.
Maybe this year try looking at it from my perspective. :)
Okay - will you pass on your shoes, if not anything else ? Lol . Yeah I will try to start understanding and looking from your perspective!
Just like that you captured the reality of that room perfectly—no filters, no masks, just the truth as it is.
Thanks for agreeing on that.
My honest reaction :
Well well! someone’s got fans left, right, and center! (not sure about deep and above) XD:p
lol - in the strict sense - meaning of “ fans “ is very different. These guys are something different - sorry couldn’t find a right word.
Oh! what do we have here, Not a moron I must say but a complex soul with a skeptical gaze and a hint of hidden depths. If it’s you, brace yourself for a wall filled with songs.(Jk I'm too lazy for that)

TBH you summed up your entire year so beautifully capturing everything in such a small space and concluding it gracefully.
I do hope you add something next year too, that’s just me hoping because I truly enjoy reading about people’s perspectives and experiences.

Thank you for sharing your memoir.<3
(Please excuse the length of my reply lol!).
Thank you for your appreciation and spending your time on reading. Look forward to the wall of music then ?!

lol yeah! It’s a bit lengthy but that’s okay ( longer than my post lol ).

Honestly appreciate your comments ! Thank you.
 
It’s been 3 months past my third season here. Wanted to write about it promptly by posting a blank page as I did not have anything to write about precisely, but was skeptical about it. So became lazy and slept on this topic on keeping it on digital print, until someone tried to put some sense in my head and kept saying close it properly if don’t want to continue anymore. On top of it – I happened to read a profile post by EROS, rightly pointing out how hard it is to sleep with unsaid thoughts and his quote was like this “ Its hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts”. Yes, so true and that really acted as a catalyst. So, here I am – to pour! LOL

When ZOZO has become integral part of your daily routine, it becomes very hard to sleep at night once the idea of writing about the journey kicks in strong. This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.

Before I jump into this season of events, let me give a recap of where things from the previous season.

Memoir of a Misfit Season 2


#1 LOST

#2 NOT IN TOUCH
- She is one strong lady that I have ever come across here and she might busy fixing the things in her personal life with her will, patience, and love.

#3 LOST - I was told that she was taking a break and may not be active as she had to take care of lot many other things but was promised that she will keep in touch. Last seen her about couple of months ago replying to someone’s post and before that around 9 months ago wishing on someone’s birthday. She deleted her profile later.

#4 LOST-FOUND- Had a talk with her after about 5 months of her inactivity and as usual she is very sweet. When I told her that I was going to Vegas for vacation, her first reaction was – “Don’t play hard to lose money and drink less” LOL. What a typical wife she is!! LOST AGAIN.

That’s about it when it comes to the previous season status.

Let me jump into this season’s journey which was full of agony, pain, fun, redemption, and all together a plethora of emotions. This covers only from 23NOV2023 thru 21DEC2024. I stop, right at there!

That was the most nicest period of the season from 23NOV2023 thru 09JAN2024 until ZingyZazz was brought down and moved to Beta, that was first victim of the move (as part of the migration from old UI to Beta) and with that I was too! I used to have great time with music and these four musketeers – Ooooorgaa, Meenammaa, RedWine, and Rainbow. What a wonderful tamil music that I have heard during that period and used to twist lyrics according to my convenience to flirt with them. Those flirts varied from, sponsoring date expenses of Ooorgaa and her bf, taking rainbow on date who always get ready but will never come, trying to woo RedWine to the basement, which was never materialized, and ever awesome Meenamma offering my morning coffee with a nice song!

When Hades pulled the plug, I felt as if he snatched my plateful of delicious food from my hands! Later he went on to closeMalayalam, Bengali and Telugu. Damn! It was painful hit on me, as ZOZO never seemed the same again! Only very limited people used to join Zingy and the songs used to stay for a longer time unlike been swept away in other rooms with flood of messages.
Suddenly, RedWine disappeared and the rest moved to Tamil room, but the interaction was not the same like before.


I tried to have first taste of Beta and honestly didn’t like it. I will explain why in the subsequent sections.

I like music especially when I am driving. You might say what the fuck are you yelping about? Can’t you listen your own music and drive? LOL fair enough. I get it. But the problem with me is, I want to listen others’s taste for music and delve into different genres. Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.

The subsequent months it was more horrible as the people that I used to hangout with were either not coming anymore or just plain busy with their lives or whatever. I found it very hard to have any sort of conversations with anyone and given my image, no one wants to venture into have one. So, I started asking people who used to post songs on wall – that – send me any 5 songs that they liked. They sent me once for the first time, but when I asked again, they stopped responding. LOL

On a personal front it was very tough period for me as I was between the jobs. When ZOZO has become integral part of your life, any slightest change to that regular routine or how people behave, it effects your life in a different way! As the popular saying goes “ site might be virtual, but emotions are not” – so true! Isn’t it? I have gone silent for most of the period and there were days where I didn’t type any single message either on the wall or in anyone’s private window. It was just plain bird watching. LOL

One fine day, I thought- Why I was struggling like this and trying to hold up? Lets try in a different way – back to the basics – boom! Anyway this old UI will be gone – if not now, in immediate future. Then, why can’t I do a slog hitting just like T20? So I unleashed millions of IDs, precisely one ID per week. When I know the co-ordinates of ZOZO ballroom precisely so well, I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above. As I have mentioned in previous seasons, When I change an ID, I don’t message the people that I already know feigning as a different guy. If at all I do message them, I admit myself upfront who I am. In one of those bored phases, I messaged a lady that I already know identifying who I am and asking – “ Is all well/ Is everything alright” – her immediate response was “cockroach”. Damn! Really? What did I do wrong? She knows me very well and had wonderful conversations in the past. Actually that hit me real hard and also gave me an opportunity to re-calibrate myself. The problem with me is, when I observe people, when my perceptions say that,they are not okay and there is something off- then I think a might little conversation would help?! May be? Then I tend to ask “ Is all well”, it was with pure genuinity and absolutely no other ulterior motives in it. In asking so, there is no gender discrimination in it. I ask all irrespective of gender when I find something is not okay. By the way- what am I doing here? Am I acting like a fucking messiah? People will be alright without any help too, right? And the what the fucking help could I offer anyway? Then I realized – “Fuck – the fucking fault is mine!” and on retrospection – when I asked people to send 5 songs and they stopped sending after the first time, oh! Did they feel like I was “Cock-Roach-Ing”? Damn! Could be! Not their fault. Just like that I found a replaceable word for “Approaching” as “Cock-Roach-Ing” ! LOL. What an invention out of calamity!

What I realized in this “ Million IDs” journey was, I kept encountering the same people that I had talked to in their different IDs! LOL. Damn! All the people are like recycled plastic skins! It was like baggage carousel in the airport. In the end – it was like I don’t have anyone left, that I don’t know of! People are bored, just like me!! All through this I was just praying Hades! Bring it down man bring it down the rest of the rooms, so that I can quit! But that was not happening, and I was going like an addict!

#1 In this journey of slog hitting, one fine day around mid- September, I found this wonderful young lady! We talked, and talked, and talked some more – on the end when I asked her “shall we be friends”, her response was “ why not, as long as you don’t force me on anything which I don’t like to talk about or do, we can be friends” - That’s good enough of deal which I cant refuse! Just like that we became friends! What I liked in her? #1 She always keeps her message as the last one in any conversation. I mean, I don’t need to wait for her response, as she is always prompt. #2 No spelling mistakes, how ever long the reply is! #3 Sense of humor, I would say – a notch up than me! Let me give you an example on this. One day she said “ Hey, I am damn tired my brain not working can I borrow yours anyway that’s idle and not using for anything else” and I replied “ yeah my brain is idle hanging between my legs, grab it and use it how ever you want” – in 25 seconds flat – her response was “ oh wow, how nice of you, I can cut that into dozen other pieces of brains and thank you for saving on anesthesia” Damn! I must be careful LOL.

In one of the conversations, she was mentioning about something which was only exclusive to forum and I said I read it. Oh! Did I slip there?!! Straight came the question – what’s my ID there? I admitted who I am and how active I am in forum reading all the posts. And then on our conversations became more meaningful and gossiping. My day literally starts with her and ends with her. Thank you for all your time Young Lady!


#2 Met another wonderful writer, but that was through forum messages as she is mostly busy on chatroom walls and didn’t want to disturb her there. (usually, the users who every active on walls, have very less time to respond and most of the times they don’t even reply and always skeptical). I responded to one of her posts via forum private messages and talked about how nice it was and the improvement areas as it was genuine feedback. Surprisingly, she responded in a positive way and I have become admirer of her and she became very good friend which is different altogether given how I have seen her on wall. Mostly we talk about various writings in a constructive way – Thank You!

Mostly that was about it.

Since this is my last post in this series, I wanted to cover few other things, though it’s none of my business!


Observations: (Disclaimer – These are just observations and have no ulterior motives of hurting anyone.)

#1 Have seen lot of couples who are in love here. However, apart from two ladies who break the barriers of geographically and diagonally opposite corners of the globe defying all the odds of race, gender, and the language, but for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! They same speak the same language including the same dialect, I guess. People might talk and have conversations in different languages, but when it comes to the vibes and love – Langugae matters?! Yes, looks like it, which is fairly understandable too, as we can relate what we talk depending on their day-to-day life and successfully relate the memories that they had by way of Vadivel or Brahmi Memes. Both are different right? We can’t connect when its different! Of course a story ( any story LOL) in local language is more effective than in any other language! Right? For example: a punjabi connects to an other Punjabi, or a Marathi to another Marathi- likewise. To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!


#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list compared to other rooms. Its not that there is no abuse in otherrooms but when it comes to this room. its damn high and failed to curtail. Why? I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group. This is always the pattern and will be continued as long the people who controls and does the crime are the same.

#3 Secret Santa Season 1 was a wonderfully managed event, and the organizers pulled it off in a meticulous way without any hiccups. This event infused more life into the forum and gave an opportunity to shake of any inhibitions and paving the way for participants to express more. I read every task and the execution of it and surprised to see their creativity though I haven’t participated.

Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)

#1 When I was between the jobs as I explained above- was busy, disoriented and lost interest as I didn’t find the people I usually talk to. That turned out as I was very busy in other site LOL. I recently came to know that, someone created an ID exactly like mine, along with the same dp/pfp that I use it here, and on the top of it he/she created exactly the same I used to have it here in ZOZO. Lol what a fucking moronic idea!

FACT: Nope, that’s not me. I like it here.


#2 I call someone as “RedWine”, and when there was an ID created in old UI exactly like this, people rumored that it was me.
FACT:Nope, not me. I don’t create female IDs as my grandma once said “When you wish that others shouldn’t be doing certain things to you, you shouldn’t be doing the same things to others” (ఇతరులు నీకేం చేయకూడదని నువ్వు అనుకుంటావో, అదే నువ్వు ఇతరులకి చెయ్యకు!)


Why I didn’t like Beta: ( This is purely mine and not speaking for anyone else- and these are all technical and I’m not touching upon any of the features it offers- BUT)

#1 I use iPhone for chat and beta is not compatible with safari browser. I tried different browsers to circumvent but those browsers irritate me and iPhone is a bitch. But what to do, I love using it. For every message, I need to resize the window to fit in the screen.

#2 After posting a song and successfully listening to it, when I tried to post another and click – I get a message “ sign into prove that you are not a bot”. Seriously? It worked a minute ago and I still see the messages scrolling up on wall, right? I refresh, relog but it didn’t work immediately at all. That gave me real frustration.

#3 Okay, I messaged in private and wait for a reply and also see that messages are being scrolled on wall and I am under the impression that I am still logged in and active. I do get immediate reply from that particular person and wonder why I didn’t get. I refresh, I see a message which was sent 7 minutes ago, NOW. In order to get messages, I need to keep refreshing!

#4 okay, this Beta didn’t work and I thought- let me try SC. When I tried to login , I got a message “ I am banned” and when I checked with Aphrodite and her reply was “ I don’t see that name in the ban list, may be you picked up a banned IP”. Double Dhamaka! LOL

With all these issues I have decided to wait until the site gets stable and start working the way I wanted it to work. Will mostly confined to Forum and will make it as my base or basement in which ever the way it works lol. Am I giving the build up like oh! You guys will miss me? LOL. Nope not all! Actually it’s the other way round. I miss you guys. Nope, this is not a good bye post at all, and I will be around and unfortunately not going anywhere!

Reaching a point in life ( zozo) where the need to impress others dissipates is a profound milestone. It signifies a shift in focus and itself on its own a liberation. The journey to this point often involved profoundly a self-discovery. The realization dawns that genuine fulfillment stems from being true to oneself rather than confirming to external standards. Touchwood was that I never entangled in a web of comparison and conformity. I maneuvered with my utmost freedom to break free any defined cycles, if there are any. In the existential struggle each moment weaves a story and every experience adds a thread to the masterpiece of life.

I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace, I do clearly understand and respect their struggles. What I do not understand is, in technological digital era, we are just one message away if they really want to convey about what’s happening. When it’s not there, it’s not there as simple as that. We are just dormant door mats LOL.

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.

Thank you all!
( End of the series )

~EkaLustYa
21JAN2025


( Note: I might edit to correct spelling mistakes or add anything that I missed )

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Telugu lo matladu ekalachya endhuku inthaganam thidtduthunav evaraina em ayna annara cheppu chembu thetha nenu :talking::slap:
 
I might consider and change my mind to continue in an inclusive way ! ( should I add a wink here)
Okay - will you pass on your shoes, if not anything else ?
Ohhh! That inclusive way is a free temptation..
And what—anything else to pass on? I'd like to know more but yeah not gonna crowd the wall here..


Perhaps we can resolve this elsewhere, IYKYK
(winking + laughing, Jk maybe, maybe not.. who knows :p )

You're welcome. :)
 
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I didn't read the previous memoirs.. jus this one. Wasnt expecting to find anything relatable but still went on reading ... Thought it'll be good coz it's real. Aaaand yep, when u ventured into SC, I was there.
I remember you tagging us active users on the main saying Hey ur Uber driver is here, if there's anywhere u wanna go... !
To which.... I replied, tyvm but am fine driving myself to anywhere I'd wanna go :p

:giggle:

Also, lemme mention here... I've spoken to a lot of ppl on SC .. ppl from various countries and made really nice friendships. If I were not of the mind to stay Outta emotional stuff on Zozo, am pretty sure I'd have some strong connections lol. No, local language ain't the main factor ... How relatable u r, what impression u leave ... Guess these what matter most.. and I'll tell how I realised this ? The immense love I got from ppl on SC on my birthday.. never would I dream that some ppl across the globe would match their time to my time zone and stay up to wish me at 12 ! I was so fuckin overwhelmed I cried and cried till about 2 am LOL !
Ironically, and sadly... the only abuser I reported on SC so far is an Indian..
Sighs....
 
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It’s been 3 months past my third season here. Wanted to write about it promptly by posting a blank page as I did not have anything to write about precisely, but was skeptical about it. So became lazy and slept on this topic on keeping it on digital print, until someone tried to put some sense in my head and kept saying close it properly if don’t want to continue anymore. On top of it – I happened to read a profile post by EROS, rightly pointing out how hard it is to sleep with unsaid thoughts and his quote was like this “ Its hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts”. Yes, so true and that really acted as a catalyst. So, here I am – to pour! LOL

When ZOZO has become integral part of your daily routine, it becomes very hard to sleep at night once the idea of writing about the journey kicks in strong. This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.

Before I jump into this season of events, let me give a recap of where things from the previous season.

Memoir of a Misfit Season 2


#1 LOST

#2 NOT IN TOUCH
- She is one strong lady that I have ever come across here and she might busy fixing the things in her personal life with her will, patience, and love.

#3 LOST - I was told that she was taking a break and may not be active as she had to take care of lot many other things but was promised that she will keep in touch. Last seen her about couple of months ago replying to someone’s post and before that around 9 months ago wishing on someone’s birthday. She deleted her profile later.

#4 LOST-FOUND- Had a talk with her after about 5 months of her inactivity and as usual she is very sweet. When I told her that I was going to Vegas for vacation, her first reaction was – “Don’t play hard to lose money and drink less” LOL. What a typical wife she is!! LOST AGAIN.

That’s about it when it comes to the previous season status.

Let me jump into this season’s journey which was full of agony, pain, fun, redemption, and all together a plethora of emotions. This covers only from 23NOV2023 thru 21DEC2024. I stop, right at there!

That was the most nicest period of the season from 23NOV2023 thru 09JAN2024 until ZingyZazz was brought down and moved to Beta, that was first victim of the move (as part of the migration from old UI to Beta) and with that I was too! I used to have great time with music and these four musketeers – Ooooorgaa, Meenammaa, RedWine, and Rainbow. What a wonderful tamil music that I have heard during that period and used to twist lyrics according to my convenience to flirt with them. Those flirts varied from, sponsoring date expenses of Ooorgaa and her bf, taking rainbow on date who always get ready but will never come, trying to woo RedWine to the basement, which was never materialized, and ever awesome Meenamma offering my morning coffee with a nice song!

When Hades pulled the plug, I felt as if he snatched my plateful of delicious food from my hands! Later he went on to closeMalayalam, Bengali and Telugu. Damn! It was painful hit on me, as ZOZO never seemed the same again! Only very limited people used to join Zingy and the songs used to stay for a longer time unlike been swept away in other rooms with flood of messages.
Suddenly, RedWine disappeared and the rest moved to Tamil room, but the interaction was not the same like before.


I tried to have first taste of Beta and honestly didn’t like it. I will explain why in the subsequent sections.

I like music especially when I am driving. You might say what the fuck are you yelping about? Can’t you listen your own music and drive? LOL fair enough. I get it. But the problem with me is, I want to listen others’s taste for music and delve into different genres. Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.

The subsequent months it was more horrible as the people that I used to hangout with were either not coming anymore or just plain busy with their lives or whatever. I found it very hard to have any sort of conversations with anyone and given my image, no one wants to venture into have one. So, I started asking people who used to post songs on wall – that – send me any 5 songs that they liked. They sent me once for the first time, but when I asked again, they stopped responding. LOL

On a personal front it was very tough period for me as I was between the jobs. When ZOZO has become integral part of your life, any slightest change to that regular routine or how people behave, it effects your life in a different way! As the popular saying goes “ site might be virtual, but emotions are not” – so true! Isn’t it? I have gone silent for most of the period and there were days where I didn’t type any single message either on the wall or in anyone’s private window. It was just plain bird watching. LOL

One fine day, I thought- Why I was struggling like this and trying to hold up? Lets try in a different way – back to the basics – boom! Anyway this old UI will be gone – if not now, in immediate future. Then, why can’t I do a slog hitting just like T20? So I unleashed millions of IDs, precisely one ID per week. When I know the co-ordinates of ZOZO ballroom precisely so well, I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above. As I have mentioned in previous seasons, When I change an ID, I don’t message the people that I already know feigning as a different guy. If at all I do message them, I admit myself upfront who I am. In one of those bored phases, I messaged a lady that I already know identifying who I am and asking – “ Is all well/ Is everything alright” – her immediate response was “cockroach”. Damn! Really? What did I do wrong? She knows me very well and had wonderful conversations in the past. Actually that hit me real hard and also gave me an opportunity to re-calibrate myself. The problem with me is, when I observe people, when my perceptions say that,they are not okay and there is something off- then I think a might little conversation would help?! May be? Then I tend to ask “ Is all well”, it was with pure genuinity and absolutely no other ulterior motives in it. In asking so, there is no gender discrimination in it. I ask all irrespective of gender when I find something is not okay. By the way- what am I doing here? Am I acting like a fucking messiah? People will be alright without any help too, right? And the what the fucking help could I offer anyway? Then I realized – “Fuck – the fucking fault is mine!” and on retrospection – when I asked people to send 5 songs and they stopped sending after the first time, oh! Did they feel like I was “Cock-Roach-Ing”? Damn! Could be! Not their fault. Just like that I found a replaceable word for “Approaching” as “Cock-Roach-Ing” ! LOL. What an invention out of calamity!

What I realized in this “ Million IDs” journey was, I kept encountering the same people that I had talked to in their different IDs! LOL. Damn! All the people are like recycled plastic skins! It was like baggage carousel in the airport. In the end – it was like I don’t have anyone left, that I don’t know of! People are bored, just like me!! All through this I was just praying Hades! Bring it down man bring it down the rest of the rooms, so that I can quit! But that was not happening, and I was going like an addict!

#1 In this journey of slog hitting, one fine day around mid- September, I found this wonderful young lady! We talked, and talked, and talked some more – on the end when I asked her “shall we be friends”, her response was “ why not, as long as you don’t force me on anything which I don’t like to talk about or do, we can be friends” - That’s good enough of deal which I cant refuse! Just like that we became friends! What I liked in her? #1 She always keeps her message as the last one in any conversation. I mean, I don’t need to wait for her response, as she is always prompt. #2 No spelling mistakes, how ever long the reply is! #3 Sense of humor, I would say – a notch up than me! Let me give you an example on this. One day she said “ Hey, I am damn tired my brain not working can I borrow yours anyway that’s idle and not using for anything else” and I replied “ yeah my brain is idle hanging between my legs, grab it and use it how ever you want” – in 25 seconds flat – her response was “ oh wow, how nice of you, I can cut that into dozen other pieces of brains and thank you for saving on anesthesia” Damn! I must be careful LOL.

In one of the conversations, she was mentioning about something which was only exclusive to forum and I said I read it. Oh! Did I slip there?!! Straight came the question – what’s my ID there? I admitted who I am and how active I am in forum reading all the posts. And then on our conversations became more meaningful and gossiping. My day literally starts with her and ends with her. Thank you for all your time Young Lady!


#2 Met another wonderful writer, but that was through forum messages as she is mostly busy on chatroom walls and didn’t want to disturb her there. (usually, the users who every active on walls, have very less time to respond and most of the times they don’t even reply and always skeptical). I responded to one of her posts via forum private messages and talked about how nice it was and the improvement areas as it was genuine feedback. Surprisingly, she responded in a positive way and I have become admirer of her and she became very good friend which is different altogether given how I have seen her on wall. Mostly we talk about various writings in a constructive way – Thank You!

Mostly that was about it.

Since this is my last post in this series, I wanted to cover few other things, though it’s none of my business!


Observations: (Disclaimer – These are just observations and have no ulterior motives of hurting anyone.)

#1 Have seen lot of couples who are in love here. However, apart from two ladies who break the barriers of geographically and diagonally opposite corners of the globe defying all the odds of race, gender, and the language, but for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! They same speak the same language including the same dialect, I guess. People might talk and have conversations in different languages, but when it comes to the vibes and love – Langugae matters?! Yes, looks like it, which is fairly understandable too, as we can relate what we talk depending on their day-to-day life and successfully relate the memories that they had by way of Vadivel or Brahmi Memes. Both are different right? We can’t connect when its different! Of course a story ( any story LOL) in local language is more effective than in any other language! Right? For example: a punjabi connects to an other Punjabi, or a Marathi to another Marathi- likewise. To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!


#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list compared to other rooms. Its not that there is no abuse in otherrooms but when it comes to this room. its damn high and failed to curtail. Why? I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group. This is always the pattern and will be continued as long the people who controls and does the crime are the same.

#3 Secret Santa Season 1 was a wonderfully managed event, and the organizers pulled it off in a meticulous way without any hiccups. This event infused more life into the forum and gave an opportunity to shake of any inhibitions and paving the way for participants to express more. I read every task and the execution of it and surprised to see their creativity though I haven’t participated.

Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)

#1 When I was between the jobs as I explained above- was busy, disoriented and lost interest as I didn’t find the people I usually talk to. That turned out as I was very busy in other site LOL. I recently came to know that, someone created an ID exactly like mine, along with the same dp/pfp that I use it here, and on the top of it he/she created exactly the same I used to have it here in ZOZO. Lol what a fucking moronic idea!

FACT: Nope, that’s not me. I like it here.


#2 I call someone as “RedWine”, and when there was an ID created in old UI exactly like this, people rumored that it was me.
FACT:Nope, not me. I don’t create female IDs as my grandma once said “When you wish that others shouldn’t be doing certain things to you, you shouldn’t be doing the same things to others” (ఇతరులు నీకేం చేయకూడదని నువ్వు అనుకుంటావో, అదే నువ్వు ఇతరులకి చెయ్యకు!)


Why I didn’t like Beta: ( This is purely mine and not speaking for anyone else- and these are all technical and I’m not touching upon any of the features it offers- BUT)

#1 I use iPhone for chat and beta is not compatible with safari browser. I tried different browsers to circumvent but those browsers irritate me and iPhone is a bitch. But what to do, I love using it. For every message, I need to resize the window to fit in the screen.

#2 After posting a song and successfully listening to it, when I tried to post another and click – I get a message “ sign into prove that you are not a bot”. Seriously? It worked a minute ago and I still see the messages scrolling up on wall, right? I refresh, relog but it didn’t work immediately at all. That gave me real frustration.

#3 Okay, I messaged in private and wait for a reply and also see that messages are being scrolled on wall and I am under the impression that I am still logged in and active. I do get immediate reply from that particular person and wonder why I didn’t get. I refresh, I see a message which was sent 7 minutes ago, NOW. In order to get messages, I need to keep refreshing!

#4 okay, this Beta didn’t work and I thought- let me try SC. When I tried to login , I got a message “ I am banned” and when I checked with Aphrodite and her reply was “ I don’t see that name in the ban list, may be you picked up a banned IP”. Double Dhamaka! LOL

With all these issues I have decided to wait until the site gets stable and start working the way I wanted it to work. Will mostly confined to Forum and will make it as my base or basement in which ever the way it works lol. Am I giving the build up like oh! You guys will miss me? LOL. Nope not all! Actually it’s the other way round. I miss you guys. Nope, this is not a good bye post at all, and I will be around and unfortunately not going anywhere!

Reaching a point in life ( zozo) where the need to impress others dissipates is a profound milestone. It signifies a shift in focus and itself on its own a liberation. The journey to this point often involved profoundly a self-discovery. The realization dawns that genuine fulfillment stems from being true to oneself rather than confirming to external standards. Touchwood was that I never entangled in a web of comparison and conformity. I maneuvered with my utmost freedom to break free any defined cycles, if there are any. In the existential struggle each moment weaves a story and every experience adds a thread to the masterpiece of life.

I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace, I do clearly understand and respect their struggles. What I do not understand is, in technological digital era, we are just one message away if they really want to convey about what’s happening. When it’s not there, it’s not there as simple as that. We are just dormant door mats LOL.

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.

Thank you all!
( End of the series )

~EkaLustYa
21JAN2025


( Note: I might edit to correct spelling mistakes or add anything that I missed )
Amazing, the words, the expression the weight n thought
 
Wasnt expecting to find anything relatable but still went on reading
Thanks for reading !
when u ventured into SC, I was there.
I remember you tagging us active users on the main saying Hey ur Uber driver is here, if there's anywhere u wanna go... !
To which.... I replied, tyvm but am fine driving myself to anywhere I'd wanna go :p
lol - yes, that’s me Uber driver ! I have added uber eats too to my services! Hope you utilize my services next time !
No, local language ain't the main factor ... How relatable u r, what impression u leave ... Guess these what matter most.. and I'll tell how I realised this ?
I completely agree with you on that! The observation I was making is something different and you went a bit tangential! The key word here is “ lovers”! If you still didn’t get my point, venture delving into forum posts some time! I rest my case there! Ofcourse there are always few exceptions as I already noted.
The immense love I got from ppl on SC on my birthday.. never would I dream that some ppl across the globe would match their time to my time zone and stay up to wish me at 12 !
Blessed are the souls, who have wonderful friends and I can feel the nostalgia! Hope you had wonderful birthday!
the only abuser I reported on SC so far is an Indian..
Abuse has no gender, race, religion, color , or any national origin!

Again - thanks for reading !
 
It’s been 3 months past my third season here. Wanted to write about it promptly by posting a blank page as I did not have anything to write about precisely, but was skeptical about it. So became lazy and slept on this topic on keeping it on digital print, until someone tried to put some sense in my head and kept saying close it properly if don’t want to continue anymore. On top of it – I happened to read a profile post by EROS, rightly pointing out how hard it is to sleep with unsaid thoughts and his quote was like this “ Its hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts”. Yes, so true and that really acted as a catalyst. So, here I am – to pour! LOL

When ZOZO has become integral part of your daily routine, it becomes very hard to sleep at night once the idea of writing about the journey kicks in strong. This is my journal and going to be the final post in this series. So obviously its going to be a very long post.

Before I jump into this season of events, let me give a recap of where things from the previous season.

Memoir of a Misfit Season 2


#1 LOST

#2 NOT IN TOUCH
- She is one strong lady that I have ever come across here and she might busy fixing the things in her personal life with her will, patience, and love.

#3 LOST - I was told that she was taking a break and may not be active as she had to take care of lot many other things but was promised that she will keep in touch. Last seen her about couple of months ago replying to someone’s post and before that around 9 months ago wishing on someone’s birthday. She deleted her profile later.

#4 LOST-FOUND- Had a talk with her after about 5 months of her inactivity and as usual she is very sweet. When I told her that I was going to Vegas for vacation, her first reaction was – “Don’t play hard to lose money and drink less” LOL. What a typical wife she is!! LOST AGAIN.

That’s about it when it comes to the previous season status.

Let me jump into this season’s journey which was full of agony, pain, fun, redemption, and all together a plethora of emotions. This covers only from 23NOV2023 thru 21DEC2024. I stop, right at there!

That was the most nicest period of the season from 23NOV2023 thru 09JAN2024 until ZingyZazz was brought down and moved to Beta, that was first victim of the move (as part of the migration from old UI to Beta) and with that I was too! I used to have great time with music and these four musketeers – Ooooorgaa, Meenammaa, RedWine, and Rainbow. What a wonderful tamil music that I have heard during that period and used to twist lyrics according to my convenience to flirt with them. Those flirts varied from, sponsoring date expenses of Ooorgaa and her bf, taking rainbow on date who always get ready but will never come, trying to woo RedWine to the basement, which was never materialized, and ever awesome Meenamma offering my morning coffee with a nice song!

When Hades pulled the plug, I felt as if he snatched my plateful of delicious food from my hands! Later he went on to closeMalayalam, Bengali and Telugu. Damn! It was painful hit on me, as ZOZO never seemed the same again! Only very limited people used to join Zingy and the songs used to stay for a longer time unlike been swept away in other rooms with flood of messages.
Suddenly, RedWine disappeared and the rest moved to Tamil room, but the interaction was not the same like before.


I tried to have first taste of Beta and honestly didn’t like it. I will explain why in the subsequent sections.

I like music especially when I am driving. You might say what the fuck are you yelping about? Can’t you listen your own music and drive? LOL fair enough. I get it. But the problem with me is, I want to listen others’s taste for music and delve into different genres. Music is more enjoyable when its being shared except listening to Jagjit Singh gazals when you are drinking alone! Anyway that’s my take on it and you don’t need to agree with it.

The subsequent months it was more horrible as the people that I used to hangout with were either not coming anymore or just plain busy with their lives or whatever. I found it very hard to have any sort of conversations with anyone and given my image, no one wants to venture into have one. So, I started asking people who used to post songs on wall – that – send me any 5 songs that they liked. They sent me once for the first time, but when I asked again, they stopped responding. LOL

On a personal front it was very tough period for me as I was between the jobs. When ZOZO has become integral part of your life, any slightest change to that regular routine or how people behave, it effects your life in a different way! As the popular saying goes “ site might be virtual, but emotions are not” – so true! Isn’t it? I have gone silent for most of the period and there were days where I didn’t type any single message either on the wall or in anyone’s private window. It was just plain bird watching. LOL

One fine day, I thought- Why I was struggling like this and trying to hold up? Lets try in a different way – back to the basics – boom! Anyway this old UI will be gone – if not now, in immediate future. Then, why can’t I do a slog hitting just like T20? So I unleashed millions of IDs, precisely one ID per week. When I know the co-ordinates of ZOZO ballroom precisely so well, I started hitting with precision! left-right, up-down, deep- and above. As I have mentioned in previous seasons, When I change an ID, I don’t message the people that I already know feigning as a different guy. If at all I do message them, I admit myself upfront who I am. In one of those bored phases, I messaged a lady that I already know identifying who I am and asking – “ Is all well/ Is everything alright” – her immediate response was “cockroach”. Damn! Really? What did I do wrong? She knows me very well and had wonderful conversations in the past. Actually that hit me real hard and also gave me an opportunity to re-calibrate myself. The problem with me is, when I observe people, when my perceptions say that,they are not okay and there is something off- then I think a might little conversation would help?! May be? Then I tend to ask “ Is all well”, it was with pure genuinity and absolutely no other ulterior motives in it. In asking so, there is no gender discrimination in it. I ask all irrespective of gender when I find something is not okay. By the way- what am I doing here? Am I acting like a fucking messiah? People will be alright without any help too, right? And the what the fucking help could I offer anyway? Then I realized – “Fuck – the fucking fault is mine!” and on retrospection – when I asked people to send 5 songs and they stopped sending after the first time, oh! Did they feel like I was “Cock-Roach-Ing”? Damn! Could be! Not their fault. Just like that I found a replaceable word for “Approaching” as “Cock-Roach-Ing” ! LOL. What an invention out of calamity!

What I realized in this “ Million IDs” journey was, I kept encountering the same people that I had talked to in their different IDs! LOL. Damn! All the people are like recycled plastic skins! It was like baggage carousel in the airport. In the end – it was like I don’t have anyone left, that I don’t know of! People are bored, just like me!! All through this I was just praying Hades! Bring it down man bring it down the rest of the rooms, so that I can quit! But that was not happening, and I was going like an addict!

#1 In this journey of slog hitting, one fine day around mid- September, I found this wonderful young lady! We talked, and talked, and talked some more – on the end when I asked her “shall we be friends”, her response was “ why not, as long as you don’t force me on anything which I don’t like to talk about or do, we can be friends” - That’s good enough of deal which I cant refuse! Just like that we became friends! What I liked in her? #1 She always keeps her message as the last one in any conversation. I mean, I don’t need to wait for her response, as she is always prompt. #2 No spelling mistakes, how ever long the reply is! #3 Sense of humor, I would say – a notch up than me! Let me give you an example on this. One day she said “ Hey, I am damn tired my brain not working can I borrow yours anyway that’s idle and not using for anything else” and I replied “ yeah my brain is idle hanging between my legs, grab it and use it how ever you want” – in 25 seconds flat – her response was “ oh wow, how nice of you, I can cut that into dozen other pieces of brains and thank you for saving on anesthesia” Damn! I must be careful LOL.

In one of the conversations, she was mentioning about something which was only exclusive to forum and I said I read it. Oh! Did I slip there?!! Straight came the question – what’s my ID there? I admitted who I am and how active I am in forum reading all the posts. And then on our conversations became more meaningful and gossiping. My day literally starts with her and ends with her. Thank you for all your time Young Lady!


#2 Met another wonderful writer, but that was through forum messages as she is mostly busy on chatroom walls and didn’t want to disturb her there. (usually, the users who every active on walls, have very less time to respond and most of the times they don’t even reply and always skeptical). I responded to one of her posts via forum private messages and talked about how nice it was and the improvement areas as it was genuine feedback. Surprisingly, she responded in a positive way and I have become admirer of her and she became very good friend which is different altogether given how I have seen her on wall. Mostly we talk about various writings in a constructive way – Thank You!

Mostly that was about it.

Since this is my last post in this series, I wanted to cover few other things, though it’s none of my business!


Observations: (Disclaimer – These are just observations and have no ulterior motives of hurting anyone.)

#1 Have seen lot of couples who are in love here. However, apart from two ladies who break the barriers of geographically and diagonally opposite corners of the globe defying all the odds of race, gender, and the language, but for the rest of the couples, the common binding glue is – the language! They same speak the same language including the same dialect, I guess. People might talk and have conversations in different languages, but when it comes to the vibes and love – Langugae matters?! Yes, looks like it, which is fairly understandable too, as we can relate what we talk depending on their day-to-day life and successfully relate the memories that they had by way of Vadivel or Brahmi Memes. Both are different right? We can’t connect when its different! Of course a story ( any story LOL) in local language is more effective than in any other language! Right? For example: a punjabi connects to an other Punjabi, or a Marathi to another Marathi- likewise. To get this realization it almost took me 3 long years!


#2 When it comes to the abuse in rooms, hindi room tops the list compared to other rooms. Its not that there is no abuse in otherrooms but when it comes to this room. its damn high and failed to curtail. Why? I see hand in glove kind of situation of people who manages that room with the abusers. The pattern was, there is lot of groupism, and these abet it by way of feigning silent and let them do what they were doing and when the situation goes out of hand and the person who manages the helm of affairs- going out of hand, he/she comes out of feigned hibernation and wields his/her powers and mutes the other group. This is always the pattern and will be continued as long the people who controls and does the crime are the same.

#3 Secret Santa Season 1 was a wonderfully managed event, and the organizers pulled it off in a meticulous way without any hiccups. This event infused more life into the forum and gave an opportunity to shake of any inhibitions and paving the way for participants to express more. I read every task and the execution of it and surprised to see their creativity though I haven’t participated.

Rumors – (That I have heard about myself)

#1 When I was between the jobs as I explained above- was busy, disoriented and lost interest as I didn’t find the people I usually talk to. That turned out as I was very busy in other site LOL. I recently came to know that, someone created an ID exactly like mine, along with the same dp/pfp that I use it here, and on the top of it he/she created exactly the same I used to have it here in ZOZO. Lol what a fucking moronic idea!

FACT: Nope, that’s not me. I like it here.


#2 I call someone as “RedWine”, and when there was an ID created in old UI exactly like this, people rumored that it was me.
FACT:Nope, not me. I don’t create female IDs as my grandma once said “When you wish that others shouldn’t be doing certain things to you, you shouldn’t be doing the same things to others” (ఇతరులు నీకేం చేయకూడదని నువ్వు అనుకుంటావో, అదే నువ్వు ఇతరులకి చెయ్యకు!)


Why I didn’t like Beta: ( This is purely mine and not speaking for anyone else- and these are all technical and I’m not touching upon any of the features it offers- BUT)

#1 I use iPhone for chat and beta is not compatible with safari browser. I tried different browsers to circumvent but those browsers irritate me and iPhone is a bitch. But what to do, I love using it. For every message, I need to resize the window to fit in the screen.

#2 After posting a song and successfully listening to it, when I tried to post another and click – I get a message “ sign into prove that you are not a bot”. Seriously? It worked a minute ago and I still see the messages scrolling up on wall, right? I refresh, relog but it didn’t work immediately at all. That gave me real frustration.

#3 Okay, I messaged in private and wait for a reply and also see that messages are being scrolled on wall and I am under the impression that I am still logged in and active. I do get immediate reply from that particular person and wonder why I didn’t get. I refresh, I see a message which was sent 7 minutes ago, NOW. In order to get messages, I need to keep refreshing!

#4 okay, this Beta didn’t work and I thought- let me try SC. When I tried to login , I got a message “ I am banned” and when I checked with Aphrodite and her reply was “ I don’t see that name in the ban list, may be you picked up a banned IP”. Double Dhamaka! LOL

With all these issues I have decided to wait until the site gets stable and start working the way I wanted it to work. Will mostly confined to Forum and will make it as my base or basement in which ever the way it works lol. Am I giving the build up like oh! You guys will miss me? LOL. Nope not all! Actually it’s the other way round. I miss you guys. Nope, this is not a good bye post at all, and I will be around and unfortunately not going anywhere!

Reaching a point in life ( zozo) where the need to impress others dissipates is a profound milestone. It signifies a shift in focus and itself on its own a liberation. The journey to this point often involved profoundly a self-discovery. The realization dawns that genuine fulfillment stems from being true to oneself rather than confirming to external standards. Touchwood was that I never entangled in a web of comparison and conformity. I maneuvered with my utmost freedom to break free any defined cycles, if there are any. In the existential struggle each moment weaves a story and every experience adds a thread to the masterpiece of life.

I have rich memories including the people just disappeared without trace, I do clearly understand and respect their struggles. What I do not understand is, in technological digital era, we are just one message away if they really want to convey about what’s happening. When it’s not there, it’s not there as simple as that. We are just dormant door mats LOL.

If at all, a thought crosses your mind “ oh! there used to a be a moron” – just leave a message or a song on my profile.

Thank you all!
( End of the series )

~EkaLustYa
21JAN2025


( Note: I might edit to correct spelling mistakes or add anything that I missed )
Good habit of writing like a journal, auto biography , even for some part of life. Yes, it seems ,you are really good at it. Though its not everyone's cup of tea. There is always danger of people judging you. Good efforts. Inspiring. Salute. :cool:
 
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