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LOST IN MY OWN FEARS

Illusion

Illusion

☣︎BABYGURL OF ZOZO☣︎Everything is an illusion☣︎
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I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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Ap na chup chap sojao tension na lo
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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Hugs? Everyone face this inert mindset. Not just u gurl!
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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I think ur mature enough to decide whether u want to face ur fear or just let it hurts u :( i mean we r not helpless when it comes to fight our own self we have brain to think as we want we have heart to feel what is coming..
 
zhou said:
I think ur mature enough to decide whether u want to face ur fear or just let it hurts u :( i mean we r not helpless when it comes to fight our own self we have brain to think as we want we have heart to feel what is coming..
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I have tried it many times to face it but nothing happened
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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It's clear you're aware of your patterns and want to change, which is a huge step. Sometimes, understanding the root cause of these insecurities can help. Have you considered talking to someone about your past experiences or feelings? It might also be helpful to focus on building self-compassion and recognizing when you're slipping into these patterns, so you can try to pause and respond differently. Change can be tough, but small steps can lead to progress.
Awesome Intelligence™​
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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Hmm.. Avoidant attachment pattern

Firstly.. it takes real courage to recognize that you’re going through something and to actually see the pattern for what it is?
It takes a lot of guts to open up about it publicly. Seriously, kudos to you for that.

You don’t have to fix everything all at once. It’s okay to start with small steps. Just remember — you’re not manipulating anyone; you’re simply protecting your emotions, and that’s not a crime. To avoid misunderstandings or confusion, it can really help to let the other person know that it takes you time to open up and process emotions — but that you care deeply.

Awareness is the first step to change.

You’re aware of your patterns now, and you’ll break them — one step at a time!!
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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Once DR. replied to my friend who said I cant quit cigarette. Dr. said you are holding the pillar. Just leave pillar by spreading your hands n your work is done. Not that hard. Many times its our own illusions not reality that we have such problems. Forget about you , show me any one guy or girl for whom its that easy to find one of his/her choice n stay in relationship. Its almost same for most except few lucky ones. So, you are on majority side. But , because you are more intelligent who try to find the reason for it, say overthinking or over expecting , you feel that way. Trust me you are normal. Checks your pulse. Yes you are normal girl who wants all happiness in her bag n you are not different then all of us who wish same. Just live each n every moment, enjoy it whole heartedly the way you already doing. You dont know , even on zozo , many girls n guys are jealous of your personality n dream to be like you. Thank God for what He has given to you instead of complaining otherwise I would have to beat your butt hard and make you cry loudly in real.
:smoking::cool:

P.S. Stop being greedy.:mad:
 
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SiRa said:
Hmm.. Avoidant attachment pattern

Firstly.. it takes real courage to recognize that you’re going through something and to actually see the pattern for what it is?
It takes a lot of guts to open up about it publicly. Seriously, kudos to you for that.

You don’t have to fix everything all at once. It’s okay to start with small steps. Just remember — you’re not manipulating anyone; you’re simply protecting your emotions, and that’s not a crime. To avoid misunderstandings or confusion, it can really help to let the other person know that it takes you time to open up and process emotions — but that you care deeply.

Awareness is the first step to change.

You’re aware of your patterns now, and you’ll break them — one step at a time!!
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NEPTUNE said:
Hugs? Everyone face this inert mindset. Not just u gurl!
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Thank you so much for understanding my pov. At least you guys didn't judge me like others did!!
 
Dom55 said:
Once DR. replied to my friend who said I cant quit cigarette. Dr. said you are holding the pillar. Just leave pillar by spreading your hands n your work is done. Not that hard. Many times its our own illusions not reality that we have such problems. Forget about you , show me any one guy or girl for whom its that easy to find one of his/her choice n stay in relationship. Its almost same for most except fe
w lucky ones. So, you are on majority side. But , because you are more intelligent who try to find the reason for it, say overthinking or over expecting , you feel that way. Trust me you are normal. Checks your pulse. Yes you are normal girl who wants all happiness in her bag n you are not different then all of us who wish same. Just live each n every moment, enjoy it whole heartedly the way you already doing. You dont know , even on zozo , many girls n guys are jealous of your personality n dream to be like you. Thank God for what He has given to you instead of complaining otherwise I would have to beat your butt hard and make you cry loudly in real.
:smoking::cool:

P.S. Stop being greedy.:mad:
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:spoileralert:
 
Illusion said:
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No one ever taught you some curtsy? Ist my responsibility to teach you some? :smoking:. Learn to say "Thank you very much Sir, for helping me correct myself. You are doing perfectly alright to one spoiled brat like me . Thank you for being so generous to me and spending your valuable time from your busy schedule. Thats what I really deserve. You are absolutely right Sir. "
 
Dom55 said:
No one ever taught you some curtsy? Ist my responsibility to teach you some? :smoking:. Learn to say "Thank you very much Sir, for helping me correct myself. You are doing perfectly alright to one spoiled brat like me . Thank you for being so generous to me and spending your valuable time from your busy schedule. Thats what I really deserve. You are absolutely right Sir. "
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Nope... I'm not gonna say dw;)
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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You’re not the problem—you’re the one trying to heal through pain that was never your fault. That takes strength most people will never understand.
 
SiRa said:
Hmm.. Avoidant attachment pattern

Firstly.. it takes real courage to recognize that you’re going through something and to actually see the pattern for what it is?
It takes a lot of guts to open up about it publicly. Seriously, kudos to you for that.

You don’t have to fix everything all at once. It’s okay to start with small steps. Just remember — you’re not manipulating anyone; you’re simply protecting your emotions, and that’s not a crime. To avoid misunderstandings or confusion, it can really help to let the other person know that it takes you time to open up and process emotions — but that you care deeply.

Awareness is the first step to change.

You’re aware of your patterns now, and you’ll break them — one step at a time!!
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I'm agree wid ya..awareness s d Ist step to change.
 
Illusion said:
I don't know why on earth every time I try to form a connection with someone, I inevitably sabotage it.... Completely Fucked things...It's as if an invisible string yanks me back, preventing me from getting close.
I become overwhelmed, talking excessively, only to abruptly withdraw, leaving the other person bewildered. They assume I've lost interest, and honestly, I don't blame them... Who can tolerate this erratic behavior?
I literally hate this side of mine.. It makes me feel pathetic, like I'm perpetually doomed to repeat this cycle. I yearn for meaningful connections, but my own insecurities hold me hostage.Why must I be my own worst enemy? Why can't I break free from this self-destructive pattern? The pain of isolation is suffocating me, and I'm desperate to find a way out... But I failed... I ended up crying everytime bcz of this... Cause it really hurts when I lost someone close to mine just bcz of my fucking insecurities...
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We are human but try kro adat sudhar jaye jo sahi na ho.. try kro new new things like ghumna naye friends
 
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