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I’m no longer craving those messages.
I’m no longer waiting for a response.
For a while, it felt like he was just testing me. And yes — I slipped a little too. But one day I made a decision: I refuse to ride that cycle again. The highs and lows, the hot-and-cold, the care without return — I’ve stepped out of it. My rescue begins with me. I’ve stopped waiting for that dopamine rush that always ended in a cortisol crash...
I’ve had enough.
And I know now — if I don’t stop walking back into that loop, no one else will save me.
That’s when I gave closure to myself.
I asked — what will really happen if I stay in no contact? What exactly will I miss?
Did I miss the care? No — I was the one always giving it.
Did I miss the validation? I never truly got it.
Did I miss consistency? It was never there, only hot and cold.
Did I miss feeling valued? I was the one doing all the valuing.
Did I miss love? Or just the idea of love I kept holding onto?
The more I questioned, the clearer it became: I won’t miss anything real. Only illusions that kept me trapped.
This is my closure. I choose peace over cycles. I choose myself.
I forgive myself — for staying too long, for giving too much, for silencing my needs.
From now on, I carry forward only the lessons, not the pain. The chapters are closed. The cycle is over. I no longer chase closure from anyone else — I give it to myself.
And still, I am thankful for the journey. As a believer in "karma siddhantam" , I see this as the lesson I was meant to learn. It happened exactly as it should have.
This journey has taught me to love myself more.
I no longer put anyone on a pedestal — I’ve kept it empty for myself.
Goodbyes don’t shake me anymore. I choose people who choose me.
My boundaries are clear: respect them and stay, cross them and lose me.
And now, it’s helping me in both real and virtual life.
I forgive, I release, I rise.
By the way, I want to share a book that stood by me like a best friend in this journey — and my title itself says it all: It’s Not You.”
All’s well that ends well.”
Peace and cheers !!
I’m no longer craving those messages.
I’m no longer waiting for a response.
For a while, it felt like he was just testing me. And yes — I slipped a little too. But one day I made a decision: I refuse to ride that cycle again. The highs and lows, the hot-and-cold, the care without return — I’ve stepped out of it. My rescue begins with me. I’ve stopped waiting for that dopamine rush that always ended in a cortisol crash...
I’ve had enough.
And I know now — if I don’t stop walking back into that loop, no one else will save me.
That’s when I gave closure to myself.
I asked — what will really happen if I stay in no contact? What exactly will I miss?
Did I miss the care? No — I was the one always giving it.
Did I miss the validation? I never truly got it.
Did I miss consistency? It was never there, only hot and cold.
Did I miss feeling valued? I was the one doing all the valuing.
Did I miss love? Or just the idea of love I kept holding onto?
The more I questioned, the clearer it became: I won’t miss anything real. Only illusions that kept me trapped.
This is my closure. I choose peace over cycles. I choose myself.
I forgive myself — for staying too long, for giving too much, for silencing my needs.
From now on, I carry forward only the lessons, not the pain. The chapters are closed. The cycle is over. I no longer chase closure from anyone else — I give it to myself.
And still, I am thankful for the journey. As a believer in "karma siddhantam" , I see this as the lesson I was meant to learn. It happened exactly as it should have.
This journey has taught me to love myself more.
I no longer put anyone on a pedestal — I’ve kept it empty for myself.
Goodbyes don’t shake me anymore. I choose people who choose me.
My boundaries are clear: respect them and stay, cross them and lose me.
And now, it’s helping me in both real and virtual life.
I forgive, I release, I rise.
By the way, I want to share a book that stood by me like a best friend in this journey — and my title itself says it all: It’s Not You.”
All’s well that ends well.”
Peace and cheers !!
