A Story I needed to share!

[SiRa]

I have a story to share. It is my story, and in many ways, it is also the story of this space. Whenever I feel that the world is too 'busy or unwilling to listen', I write here to express what I carry in my heart.


A few months ago, I wrote a thread about something I genuinely felt. It spoke about the hypocrisy of someone who had the authority to stop abuse but instead chose to listen to false narratives from the opposite side. Later, responsibility was conveniently placed on users who were already vulnerable. I wrote that thread honestly, and even today, I have no regrets about speaking my truth.

That thread seemed to reopen unresolved wounds in one user, who took it as a reason for retaliation. From that point onward, the situation changed.

Whenever she saw me, the taunts began. Being a moderator, she had the power to mute those she disliked while allowing her supporters complete freedom. ..What followed was repeated mocking, poking, disrespect, and remarks that crossed the line of decency.

The taunts eventually crossed into personal remarks and character shaming—comments aimed at my personal life and identity rather than any real issue. These remarks were not only hurtful but unnecessary,... reflecting an intent to demean rather than engage respectfully.

The taunts and allegations continued for a long time. Judgmental comments were made—questioning personal choices and even one’s right to be part of this site. The remarks directed at me and my friends became frequent and exhausting. Groups were formed, and the behavior continued collectively. I remained quiet most of the time, spoke up on a few occasions, and yet remained unheard. Her colleagues chose to overlook what was happening.


As the situation continued, I approached those responsible for oversight. The response I received was brief..."provide proof or remain silent" . I chose not to gather or present evidence—not out of avoidance, but from a belief that my conduct and intentions have always been visible. Those who have interacted with me over time—users and moderators alike—are capable of forming their own understanding.


At one point, the message became very clear: stay if you want, or leave if you must—she is more important. After this thread, I am mentally prepared for either outcome. But one thing matters to me—I will write my side of the story. Even if I was unheard most of the time, my truth deserves to be said.

Sharing this feels like placing a heavy weight down from my shoulders. I feel lighter for having said what I carried for so long. I am not worried about consequences, because my presence here was never planned years ago, and my future here is not something I hold onto tightly. I am simply moving forward, allowing life to unfold as it will... Going with the flow


“Some truths are spoken not to change outcomes, but to free the heart that carried them.”

#Cheers and peace #

 

[ElaRa]

I have a story to share. It is my story, and in many ways, it is also the story of this space. Whenever I feel that the world is too 'busy or unwilling to listen', I write here to express what I carry in my heart.


A few months ago, I wrote a thread about something I genuinely felt. It spoke about the hypocrisy of someone who had the authority to stop abuse but instead chose to listen to false narratives from the opposite side. Later, responsibility was conveniently placed on users who were already vulnerable. I wrote that thread honestly, and even today, I have no regrets about speaking my truth.

That thread seemed to reopen unresolved wounds in one user, who took it as a reason for retaliation. From that point onward, the situation changed.

Whenever she saw me, the taunts began. Being a moderator, she had the power to mute those she disliked while allowing her supporters complete freedom. ..What followed was repeated mocking, poking, disrespect, and remarks that crossed the line of decency.

The taunts eventually crossed into personal remarks and character shaming—comments aimed at my personal life and identity rather than any real issue. These remarks were not only hurtful but unnecessary,... reflecting an intent to demean rather than engage respectfully.

The taunts and allegations continued for a long time. Judgmental comments were made—questioning personal choices and even one’s right to be part of this site. The remarks directed at me and my friends became frequent and exhausting. Groups were formed, and the behavior continued collectively. I remained quiet most of the time, spoke up on a few occasions, and yet remained unheard. Her colleagues chose to overlook what was happening.


As the situation continued, I approached those responsible for oversight. The response I received was brief..."provide proof or remain silent" . I chose not to gather or present evidence—not out of avoidance, but from a belief that my conduct and intentions have always been visible. Those who have interacted with me over time—users and moderators alike—are capable of forming their own understanding.


At one point, the message became very clear: stay if you want, or leave if you must—she is more important. After this thread, I am mentally prepared for either outcome. But one thing matters to me—I will write my side of the story. Even if I was unheard most of the time, my truth deserves to be said.

Sharing this feels like placing a heavy weight down from my shoulders. I feel lighter for having said what I carried for so long. I am not worried about consequences, because my presence here was never planned years ago, and my future here is not something I hold onto tightly. I am simply moving forward, allowing life to unfold as it will... Going with the flow


“Some truths are spoken not to change outcomes, but to free the heart that carried them.”

#Cheers and peace #

Let me begin with a heartfelt *sorry* for taking some space of your thread Siruu.

A couple of years back, when I joined forum and NOT ZOZO, I was just that *over acting dumbass* tbh. One who posts Gpt created write ups. Back in chat, The then VIP, had grudges to many users from Hindi room, especially lionbeast (who is a good soul, that I know now well and a good friend of mine) about whom I posted long paras with the help of my ex-friend(gpt), and complaint to everyone possible including Aphrodite who had no truck with ic issues (if u r seeing this, very sorry for troubling u by making u login to ic haha). Jupiter and Hades were even troubled. I wasn't that immature in my real life, yet virtual world was that provoking for me. You and many were guiding angels for me back then. Seriously that made me delete all those 4000+ points and many unwanted threads all in a go almost a year ago.

Coming to the point, Idk why but u were so so special for me (to be real u had (,has) some sister kinda bond) The sole reason I pinged u was a thread that u posted and if I am not wrong it was some autobiography/diary kind of write up that was there in the list of most viewed threads in the week. I was the one who pinged u. I do remember that well. Very well. I saw u very mature, one among those wise minds whom I encountered here. After months, we talked over a call one fine after noon, and let me put it up, it was one of those memories that I cherish. You were no gossip kind, u weren't blaming any ass, you were upto the point, wise and pragmatic.

Months later, I saw few of your post. It was my forum phase of *deleting all fucking threads of mine that weren't actually mine*. I was not that sure if u were practical minded then. Bonds are made in a sex site, I had even a hubby wifey love story for myself lol. Yet, feelings and bonds are a two way path. I always wanted to tell u. And I am sure you won't take it in a wrong way.

ZoZo is a rollercoaster. There are people who still don't talk to me and says I did some devdasi kinda thing or often black magic in getting out a moderator badge. But for those who know, they know no one gets a badge on demand and I was no one special to own a badge. At the onset of the journey like everyone, I too dreamt of badges. Vip to butterfly, but never being a staff, I had no such thoughts. But in users perspective only a lady who shows up gets it out, for which I politely showed my middle finger with a half way grin. Nothing is permanent, I say them, none of us are permanent and we aren't liable to hear someone cry to get out their intentions.

There were many bloody asses who showed up their worst face in front of me, abused even my great forefathers and my ma, called me the official title female ids endow in ZoZo - *randi* and many more third rated dramas and later came up as a very obedient nympho to suck my beewwbees when they are horny. My reply was simple. Spam with middle finger spread wide out.

So, coming to your case. Telugu room is just a heaven if u know what's there made for u in Hindi room with heavy traffic. When u made up these things, I told u (as a friend with dumb brain) to come with proof or just to leave it not for a testimony nor for a valid proof. There is only a two way out for u when u r at the vedge of suicide (lol just a saying) either to ensure the fan is worn out or to make sure of the rope. You got no option to ignore a staff at any cost, so just go with ignoring their existence or come up with a screenshot of they calling what should not be done. Either way you will get out a key out of the bars. Rather, making a statement by spitting out truths that appears to be nothing for those who mocks you is practically of no use dear. I still believe u to be one of the educated and wise soul, modest and ethical.

And most importantly I may not be a good soul in the minds of many. That doesn't turn me out to be a villain figure to everyone. So goes for all. That's why there is groups and dramas over there in your room. Trust me, you got nothing to lose if u ignore them. But making out your ears to hear them, notice them and to see them moan has things to do with u. Destroying what u r, and how u r.

*HUGS*

 

[Anshhi]

I have a story to share. It is my story, and in many ways, it is also the story of this space. Whenever I feel that the world is too 'busy or unwilling to listen', I write here to express what I carry in my heart.


A few months ago, I wrote a thread about something I genuinely felt. It spoke about the hypocrisy of someone who had the authority to stop abuse but instead chose to listen to false narratives from the opposite side. Later, responsibility was conveniently placed on users who were already vulnerable. I wrote that thread honestly, and even today, I have no regrets about speaking my truth.

That thread seemed to reopen unresolved wounds in one user, who took it as a reason for retaliation. From that point onward, the situation changed.

Whenever she saw me, the taunts began. Being a moderator, she had the power to mute those she disliked while allowing her supporters complete freedom. ..What followed was repeated mocking, poking, disrespect, and remarks that crossed the line of decency.

The taunts eventually crossed into personal remarks and character shaming—comments aimed at my personal life and identity rather than any real issue. These remarks were not only hurtful but unnecessary,... reflecting an intent to demean rather than engage respectfully.

The taunts and allegations continued for a long time. Judgmental comments were made—questioning personal choices and even one’s right to be part of this site. The remarks directed at me and my friends became frequent and exhausting. Groups were formed, and the behavior continued collectively. I remained quiet most of the time, spoke up on a few occasions, and yet remained unheard. Her colleagues chose to overlook what was happening.


As the situation continued, I approached those responsible for oversight. The response I received was brief..."provide proof or remain silent" . I chose not to gather or present evidence—not out of avoidance, but from a belief that my conduct and intentions have always been visible. Those who have interacted with me over time—users and moderators alike—are capable of forming their own understanding.


At one point, the message became very clear: stay if you want, or leave if you must—she is more important. After this thread, I am mentally prepared for either outcome. But one thing matters to me—I will write my side of the story. Even if I was unheard most of the time, my truth deserves to be said.

Sharing this feels like placing a heavy weight down from my shoulders. I feel lighter for having said what I carried for so long. I am not worried about consequences, because my presence here was never planned years ago, and my future here is not something I hold onto tightly. I am simply moving forward, allowing life to unfold as it will... Going with the flow


“Some truths are spoken not to change outcomes, but to free the heart that carried them.”

#Cheers and peace #

It's a sign of maturity to accept the situation as 'go with the flow' while maintaining your dignity. Stay well always.

Awesome Intelligence™​

 

[Osprey]

I have a story to share. It is my story, and in many ways, it is also the story of this space. Whenever I feel that the world is too 'busy or unwilling to listen', I write here to express what I carry in my heart.


A few months ago, I wrote a thread about something I genuinely felt. It spoke about the hypocrisy of someone who had the authority to stop abuse but instead chose to listen to false narratives from the opposite side. Later, responsibility was conveniently placed on users who were already vulnerable. I wrote that thread honestly, and even today, I have no regrets about speaking my truth.

That thread seemed to reopen unresolved wounds in one user, who took it as a reason for retaliation. From that point onward, the situation changed.

Whenever she saw me, the taunts began. Being a moderator, she had the power to mute those she disliked while allowing her supporters complete freedom. ..What followed was repeated mocking, poking, disrespect, and remarks that crossed the line of decency.

The taunts eventually crossed into personal remarks and character shaming—comments aimed at my personal life and identity rather than any real issue. These remarks were not only hurtful but unnecessary,... reflecting an intent to demean rather than engage respectfully.

The taunts and allegations continued for a long time. Judgmental comments were made—questioning personal choices and even one’s right to be part of this site. The remarks directed at me and my friends became frequent and exhausting. Groups were formed, and the behavior continued collectively. I remained quiet most of the time, spoke up on a few occasions, and yet remained unheard. Her colleagues chose to overlook what was happening.


As the situation continued, I approached those responsible for oversight. The response I received was brief..."provide proof or remain silent" . I chose not to gather or present evidence—not out of avoidance, but from a belief that my conduct and intentions have always been visible. Those who have interacted with me over time—users and moderators alike—are capable of forming their own understanding.


At one point, the message became very clear: stay if you want, or leave if you must—she is more important. After this thread, I am mentally prepared for either outcome. But one thing matters to me—I will write my side of the story. Even if I was unheard most of the time, my truth deserves to be said.

Sharing this feels like placing a heavy weight down from my shoulders. I feel lighter for having said what I carried for so long. I am not worried about consequences, because my presence here was never planned years ago, and my future here is not something I hold onto tightly. I am simply moving forward, allowing life to unfold as it will... Going with the flow


“Some truths are spoken not to change outcomes, but to free the heart that carried them.”

#Cheers and peace #

 

[SiRa]

Let me begin with a heartfelt *sorry* for taking some space of your thread Siruu.

A couple of years back, when I joined forum and NOT ZOZO, I was just that *over acting dumbass* tbh. One who posts Gpt created write ups. Back in chat, The then VIP, had grudges to many users from Hindi room, especially lionbeast (who is a good soul, that I know now well and a good friend of mine) about whom I posted long paras with the help of my ex-friend(gpt), and complaint to everyone possible including Aphrodite who had no truck with ic issues (if u r seeing this, very sorry for troubling u by making u login to ic haha). Jupiter and Hades were even troubled. I wasn't that immature in my real life, yet virtual world was that provoking for me. You and many were guiding angels for me back then. Seriously that made me delete all those 4000+ points and many unwanted threads all in a go almost a year ago.

Coming to the point, Idk why but u were so so special for me (to be real u had (,has) some sister kinda bond) The sole reason I pinged u was a thread that u posted and if I am not wrong it was some autobiography/diary kind of write up that was there in the list of most viewed threads in the week. I was the one who pinged u. I do remember that well. Very well. I saw u very mature, one among those wise minds whom I encountered here. After months, we talked over a call one fine after noon, and let me put it up, it was one of those memories that I cherish. You were no gossip kind, u weren't blaming any ass, you were upto the point, wise and pragmatic.

Months later, I saw few of your post. It was my forum phase of *deleting all fucking threads of mine that weren't actually mine*. I was not that sure if u were practical minded then. Bonds are made in a sex site, I had even a hubby wifey love story for myself lol. Yet, feelings and bonds are a two way path. I always wanted to tell u. And I am sure you won't take it in a wrong way.

ZoZo is a rollercoaster. There are people who still don't talk to me and says I did some devdasi kinda thing or often black magic in getting out a moderator badge. But for those who know, they know no one gets a badge on demand and I was no one special to own a badge. At the onset of the journey like everyone, I too dreamt of badges. Vip to butterfly, but never being a staff, I had no such thoughts. But in users perspective only a lady who shows up gets it out, for which I politely showed my middle finger with a half way grin. Nothing is permanent, I say them, none of us are permanent and we aren't liable to hear someone cry to get out their intentions.

There were many bloody asses who showed up their worst face in front of me, abused even my great forefathers and my ma, called me the official title female ids endow in ZoZo - *randi* and many more third rated dramas and later came up as a very obedient nympho to suck my beewwbees when they are horny. My reply was simple. Spam with middle finger spread wide out.

So, coming to your case. Telugu room is just a heaven if u know what's there made for u in Hindi room with heavy traffic. When u made up these things, I told u (as a friend with dumb brain) to come with proof or just to leave it not for a testimony nor for a valid proof. There is only a two way out for u when u r at the vedge of suicide (lol just a saying) either to ensure the fan is worn out or to make sure of the rope. You got no option to ignore a staff at any cost, so just go with ignoring their existence or come up with a screenshot of they calling what should not be done. Either way you will get out a key out of the bars. Rather, making a statement by spitting out truths that appears to be nothing for those who mocks you is practically of no use dear. I still believe u to be one of the educated and wise soul, modest and ethical.

And most importantly I may not be a good soul in the minds of many. That doesn't turn me out to be a villain figure to everyone. So goes for all. That's why there is groups and dramas over there in your room. Trust me, you got nothing to lose if u ignore them. But making out your ears to hear them, notice them and to see them moan has things to do with u. Destroying what u r, and how u r.

*HUGS*

Thank u so much for sharing your thoughts and experience..means a lot laddooo

 

[ukgirl]

I have a story to share. It is my story, and in many ways, it is also the story of this space. Whenever I feel that the world is too 'busy or unwilling to listen', I write here to express what I carry in my heart.


A few months ago, I wrote a thread about something I genuinely felt. It spoke about the hypocrisy of someone who had the authority to stop abuse but instead chose to listen to false narratives from the opposite side. Later, responsibility was conveniently placed on users who were already vulnerable. I wrote that thread honestly, and even today, I have no regrets about speaking my truth.

That thread seemed to reopen unresolved wounds in one user, who took it as a reason for retaliation. From that point onward, the situation changed.

Whenever she saw me, the taunts began. Being a moderator, she had the power to mute those she disliked while allowing her supporters complete freedom. ..What followed was repeated mocking, poking, disrespect, and remarks that crossed the line of decency.

The taunts eventually crossed into personal remarks and character shaming—comments aimed at my personal life and identity rather than any real issue. These remarks were not only hurtful but unnecessary,... reflecting an intent to demean rather than engage respectfully.

The taunts and allegations continued for a long time. Judgmental comments were made—questioning personal choices and even one’s right to be part of this site. The remarks directed at me and my friends became frequent and exhausting. Groups were formed, and the behavior continued collectively. I remained quiet most of the time, spoke up on a few occasions, and yet remained unheard. Her colleagues chose to overlook what was happening.


As the situation continued, I approached those responsible for oversight. The response I received was brief..."provide proof or remain silent" . I chose not to gather or present evidence—not out of avoidance, but from a belief that my conduct and intentions have always been visible. Those who have interacted with me over time—users and moderators alike—are capable of forming their own understanding.


At one point, the message became very clear: stay if you want, or leave if you must—she is more important. After this thread, I am mentally prepared for either outcome. But one thing matters to me—I will write my side of the story. Even if I was unheard most of the time, my truth deserves to be said.

Sharing this feels like placing a heavy weight down from my shoulders. I feel lighter for having said what I carried for so long. I am not worried about consequences, because my presence here was never planned years ago, and my future here is not something I hold onto tightly. I am simply moving forward, allowing life to unfold as it will... Going with the flow


“Some truths are spoken not to change outcomes, but to free the heart that carried them.”

#Cheers and peace #

Firstly, I honestly don’t understand why criticism of me is being posted these days, especially when I’ve been busy with exams. I barely have time for real life friends, let alone forum drama or even this site. Even on New Year’s night, when you spoke about me in a horrible demeaning way in public, I chose not to react because I refuse to waste time or energy on Telugu room conflicts.

Despite the negative impression you seem to have of me, I have always respected you, Sirah garu. When you posted your thread about hypocrisy and moderator power, you spoke about mute privileges, yet not once did you approach me directly or ask for my side. You didn’t seek clarity, and you formed conclusions about conflicts that didn’t involve you.

Let’s assume for a moment that I truly am “the problem” for everyone you know. Even then, every female staff member in the Telugu room has faced similar treatment at one point or another. In fact, every Telugu staff member has dealt with abuse from the same people over the years. Most eventually left because the environment became unbearable and the abusers were allowed to stay. Do you genuinely believe that if someone else replaced me as moderator, they would not face the same criticism, insults, and harassment? Or would the target simply change?

For the sake of clarity: I am not a “keyboard warrior” who spends all day arguing online continuously muting or kicking. When someone crosses a line, I report it to staff—simple. Regarding the incident you referenced, I did not write that thread. A friend posted it after asking for my consent, and that was the extent of my involvement.

Over time, I stopped taking the site seriously. I reduced my involvement in fights. I come to Chatzozo, chat briefly, and leave. I see people I don’t like every day, yet I don’t provoke or poke them. I also started speaking to less people and stopped investing emotionally in most people because experiences taught me that respect and time mean very little here. People smile to your face and turn on you the moment it benefits them. If we keep posting threads and counter-threads about each other, none of us will have time to focus on real life—and I hope you are mature enough to understand that.

This is also where I need to be very direct: every person on this site has their own intentions and motives. Not everyone displays them openly the way I do. I treat this website for exactly what it is—a chatting site. Nothing more. Many people here act polite, speak softly, and present themselves as victims, while conveniently leaving out the things they’ve said or done behind the scenes. Narratives are carefully curated. Every issue has two sides, and pretending otherwise is dishonest. Before blaming me or accepting one version of events, acknowledge the full dynamics and look at people as they are—not just as they choose to appear.

I’ve noticed that you place significant weight on the opinions of your close circle while avoiding any direct resolution with me. I made multiple attempts to put egos aside and speak to you privately, but those attempts were shut down—whether due to stubbornness or an unwillingness to consider another perspective.

As for “friends,” “followers,” or “supporters,” let me be blunt: I no longer consider anyone on that site a true friend. After everything I’ve seen, I don’t believe people are neutral or without motive. It’s a sex site. People involve themselves in drama for sexual attention, validation, or personal gain like sexual benefits. I’m not naïve about how that works, and I’ve even told people to stop inserting themselves into conflicts just to earn favor and get in a woman's good books for sexual advantages.

You are also not the only one who has been targeted or demeaned there. I’ve been body-shamed, mocked for my age, told I didn’t deserve my mod badge, called slurs like “ukgirl oka pichi lanja,” and had insults directed at my parents. Yes, it hurt. I confided in a few people when I felt broken. But instead of allowing me to deal with my grief, you dismissed my feelings and pointed fingers by comparing experiences and questioning why people supported me when they didn’t support you in the past.

That wasn’t empathy—it was comparison of wounds. And that brings me to a question I asked then and still ask now: you are older and have been on that site for years. Why not show maturity and let the past stay in the past? Why keep reviving old issues?

People call you wise, so why choose public threads over private conversation? Why paint me negatively when I’ve never spoken against you publicly? What is the actual goal—to resolve something, or to shape a narrative where I am the problem and you are the victim?

Despite everything, I can say this: I’m glad I crossed paths with people like you and your circle because it taught me a long lasting lesson—to stand firm in what I believe and stop investing energy in people who don’t deserve it. I genuinely feel better than before, especially since I’m no longer being dragged into conflicts unrelated to me, and I have no interest in these issues or the opinions surrounding them.

Even now I’m posting this now to end it or else i wouldn't have bothered to answer. If you truly want resolution, it can happen privately and peacefully. There is no reason to carry resentment over something so small in the larger picture of life. If you still choose to drag this topic further, highlight more things about me, or continue portraying me as an evil person, you are free to do so. It won’t be my time that’s being wasted—it will be yours. I will not be responding further in this thread, nor will I engage in repeated back-and-forth discussions.

Au revoir.