the weight of putting me first....
1.The sentiment is sweet undeniably.....He genuinely means it when he says"You come first, always." If I mention a headache he console me and said i am always with you...If I sigh about a rough day, he cancels his own plans instantly.....
2.The first crack is the exhaustion of being his sole priority.....I wish he would dedicate that intensity to his own dreams his own needs.....
3.He believes he is making me happy to be always available for me...when I insist,please make friends go out with your friends, put yourself first," he just smiles kindly and says I'm being selfless....and very much happy with you It feels less like love, and more like a gentle person...
4.he goes right back to doing exactly what he had already planned which is usually the opposite of what I asked for.... I asked for space and not to talk to me but insted of being silent he brings me flowers and plans a surprise just always trying to make me happy and put lots of effort just to get a smile on mine face....
5.Over caring is the fifthpoint....It's like living under a high intensity spotlight.... Every meal I eat every minute I’m late, every shift in mine mood swings ..mine silence cause tension to him which i dont want ....
6.He is not controlling...but he is perpetually worrying about me "Are you okay? Did anything happened ?you look dull and sad ? Are you sure you shouldnot rest? It feels less like support and more like being a small kid infront of him where i have to show same level of worriedness....
7.he thinks too much every minor event becomes a complex problem to be solved usually involving me..... Mine casual comment about being tired or restless becomes a deep concern to him....
8.I am unhappy because I feel guilty simply for existing..... His love feels transactional... mine happiness is the payment for his effort in our relationship....
9. I am perpetually trying to manage his anxiety,his tension about me softening mine true feelings to avoid triggering his overcare I tried to pretend everything is fine so that he will not worried for me.....
10.I try to push him toward his own happiness and goal....Please put yourself first for once but he always said mine happiness is being with you ,his main goal is to make me happy if i am sad...he is peacefull and happy if i am happy....
I guess its a best story or a points,I could make it as i am happy i am not sad in this relationship.....
#task 3: completed
write a story on your relationship even if you are happy but you have to write atleast 10 lines and explain it well that you are not happy and point out those things why you are not happy......
1.The sentiment is sweet undeniably.....He genuinely means it when he says"You come first, always." If I mention a headache he console me and said i am always with you...If I sigh about a rough day, he cancels his own plans instantly.....
2.The first crack is the exhaustion of being his sole priority.....I wish he would dedicate that intensity to his own dreams his own needs.....
3.He believes he is making me happy to be always available for me...when I insist,please make friends go out with your friends, put yourself first," he just smiles kindly and says I'm being selfless....and very much happy with you It feels less like love, and more like a gentle person...
4.he goes right back to doing exactly what he had already planned which is usually the opposite of what I asked for.... I asked for space and not to talk to me but insted of being silent he brings me flowers and plans a surprise just always trying to make me happy and put lots of effort just to get a smile on mine face....
5.Over caring is the fifthpoint....It's like living under a high intensity spotlight.... Every meal I eat every minute I’m late, every shift in mine mood swings ..mine silence cause tension to him which i dont want ....
6.He is not controlling...but he is perpetually worrying about me "Are you okay? Did anything happened ?you look dull and sad ? Are you sure you shouldnot rest? It feels less like support and more like being a small kid infront of him where i have to show same level of worriedness....
7.he thinks too much every minor event becomes a complex problem to be solved usually involving me..... Mine casual comment about being tired or restless becomes a deep concern to him....
8.I am unhappy because I feel guilty simply for existing..... His love feels transactional... mine happiness is the payment for his effort in our relationship....
9. I am perpetually trying to manage his anxiety,his tension about me softening mine true feelings to avoid triggering his overcare I tried to pretend everything is fine so that he will not worried for me.....
10.I try to push him toward his own happiness and goal....Please put yourself first for once but he always said mine happiness is being with you ,his main goal is to make me happy if i am sad...he is peacefull and happy if i am happy....
I guess its a best story or a points,I could make it as i am happy i am not sad in this relationship.....
#task 3: completed
write a story on your relationship even if you are happy but you have to write atleast 10 lines and explain it well that you are not happy and point out those things why you are not happy......
